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Hold on tight, this ride is a wild one

Unknown userMember12 Apr 2018, 2:03 pm AEST

Hold on tight, this ride is a wild one

Good morning,

Hold on tight, this ride is a wild one - my life, explained in one sentence. I’d like to create a thread where we can share our wild ride stories.

One wild ride I have daily or hourly is the mood ride. It still takes me by surprise how quickly my mood changes and the impact of triggers, flashbacks and emotions. It’s not like in a roller coaster, where I’m at the top spreading my arm, screaming, waiting for the plunge. No, there is no excitement before the drop, it’s more like being in a scary ride and the next monster appears without any notice.

And when the monster appears the ride stops and I get so exhausted and need a long long time to press the button to continue the trip...

I’ve had little wins this week, but getting out of my comfort zone has left me exhausted, confused and a bit scared, whether all my life will be an effort. It seems I get overwhelmed well before the event, let’s say meeting someone for coffee and then after the coffee I’m drained. So an hour meeting for coffee turns out to be a full day or more of hard work in my head...

How do you deal with that? What is your wild ride?

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2018, 6:59 pm AEST

Re: Hold on tight, this ride is a wild one

Sitting with you too

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2018, 7:04 pm AEST

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Will it ever get easier?

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor20 Apr 2018, 7:17 pm AEST

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If you listen to the therapists, they tell you that it can @Former-Member ..... as you go back through addressing trauma and pain, and improving patterns of responses and thinking ..... gently, gently in increments .....

Are you seeing a counsellor at the moment ?

💐💕

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2018, 7:32 pm AEST

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Yes. And I guess it’s gentle. But it’s a major earthquake for me. I don’t know if I’m ready for this, I don’t know if I ever will. I felt the same every time I left hospital, you have to leave at some point, right? When’s the right point? No one knows. When’s the right point to rip up the past? No one knows, one has to try. I feel like I’m failing, like I’m not trying hard enough. I feel like shutting down.

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2018, 7:35 pm AEST

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Every single countless time when trauma hit my life, I was alone. People are trying to tell me I’m not alone, there with me on this battle. But I am alone, in my thoughts, in the weeks, days, hours between therapy. No one is there with me in my head. I am entirely alone. Alone again.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor20 Apr 2018, 7:35 pm AEST

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It is important to communicate this to your counsellor too @Former-Member. Are you on meds ? These feelings might be being exacerbated by medication imbalance too .....

Are you safe tonight ?

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2018, 7:41 pm AEST

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Yes

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor20 Apr 2018, 7:43 pm AEST

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Can you call the Sane Helpcentre @Former-Member and chat with them ? It sounds like you could use some extra support this evening.

I will stay here with you, and I am glad you are telling it like it is in this moment ..... but when you are feeling this way it is also important to use coping strategies and self-care.

Its good that you have eaten tonight (Veggie grill) ..... can you make yourself a cup of tea ? Holding a warm mug can be calming.

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2018, 7:58 pm AEST

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I don’t know what to say to them anymore.
I’m in bed, taken my night meds, waiting for relief.

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Unknown userMember20 Apr 2018, 8:00 pm AEST

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A few hours easy from my brain and my body.
Good night shaz.

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