I think you are leading an exhausting life at the moment @Bella1978. I don't know how you do it.
Good to hear that mum is okay, even if a bit tired. Are her meds the same? Have they finished the Assessment?
I'm exhausted and sore today. I did the 5km ParkRun this morning at 8am. I know!!!!! So early. I walked the whole course. After the half way mark, my face was red, my body aching, my feet - oh ouch. And I was on the verge of tears. I couldn't get my negative self talk to stop. On and on it went. You won't finish the 5 kms. You can't make it. When you get to the 4km mark you can just go to your car and go home. Oh I wanted to cry. So emotional. But when I reached the part where all the runners and fast walkers were celebrating at the finish line, and I had 1 km left to go, I almost did pull out. But one of the volunteers stationed at that point said to me, 1km to go. You can do this. So I continued. Ithink the last km was when I stopped feeling like I wanted to cry.
I did the 5kms in 1 hour and 31 seconds. My psychologist tole me i'd do it in 1 hour. I told him know. Itwill be 1 and a half hours at least. So of course he is right. Oh, he's always right. Gets annoying after a while. But I should be used to it. Oh, putting my feet on the ground now - agony. lol.
All the way through the walk i'm telling myself i'm not doing this again. But we will see how I feel next week.
So that's all i've done. My mum took my son to soccer. His dad and wife and little brother showed up at half time and saw him play soccer. Now he's at their house in Melbourne for the night.
My niece and her partner have come up to town to Visit. They are staying with mum. I haven't seen them. Besides being exhausted. I'm still emotional about trying to accept that this is my life now and I'll always have MI.
So It's a quiet night at my house tonight.
