Fragile

Sergio de Pieri

wow @Dimity he looks really interesting. I will look at him more. I was in St Mary’s Sydney at the same age at 8, then came down to suburban Melbourne. We did not get to St Pats til the 1990s. Mother and I were at Australian Catholic university. At home there was only classical and ABC and my brother bought some records, I think he may have watched Countdown and Disney. I was already off working a lot after school.

I liked Cat Stevens but didn’t learn about him till I was about 19, after I had gotten away from the flats, where a more mellow sound was appreciated. lol… I didn’t really have a crowd but I was out and about a lot on the way to school or work and the area was high density.

lol @Dimity @AuntGlow I just always thought I had bad taste. lol … People are pretty convinced of their musical tastes. That so many associate classical music with being socially superior made it really hard for me to feel comfortable with them as our circumstances have always been “complex “. We are doing Gabrieli and Bach plus plus but I need to be careful regarding anonymity.

You're definitely not a stranger here. 💛 @Dimity

What else is going on for you at the moment? Has anything felt a bit lighter today? (It's okay if not)

Ohhh! I see haha @Appleblossom

That's still super cool. I say, boogie away. 💃

Aww, that would feel vulnerable... but I am glad this is shifting for you. More often than not, we can find core connections with most people - it's just about exploring your curiosity, I think.

Well, seeing as you like rock and classical (which is actually very common!) You might like David Garrett: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7oPHkqzPqA&list=RDZ7oPHkqzPqA&start_radio=1

Let me know what you think! 🤩

Our circumstances were complex too @Appleblossom . A few of the trappings of entitlement and some snobbery but actually fairly deprived. And lashings of trauma.

I guess I mostly listen to classical. I'm not across popular culture, and feel ignorant and uninformed. Had a Muslim taxi driver today who remembered taking me to hear church music. I remembered him kindly waiting while I checked whether tickets were sold out.

@AuntGlow lots happening. Legal, financial, family, health. Had multiple scans today. And the perpetual sense of homelessness and solastalgia when I do have secure housing. Relief while walking.

That is really lovely that he remembered you. @Dimity I sense we have both felt invisible a lot of the time. That is a credit to you, probably giving him an insight into our culture. I figure Vivaldi wrote his Gloria for orphanage girls to sing, and that church music especially should aspire to heavenly rather than worldly values.

Mothers’ family did the classical music snobbery thing, which leaves me disgusted now, that they could not do the right thing re any of the deaths in the family. I really pulled my weight but it is what it is.

I first felt connected to you regarding your language around spirituality and Richard Rohr. We have delved into similar fine aesthetics, which is more about the soul or otherworldly than about prestige.

I am sorry there is so much going on physically as well as family and financially. I guess it is a bit day at a time, to see how family events and discussions unfold. I definitely appreciate your presence on the forum.

@AuntGlow I have worked hard to find common ground, I don’t mention this or that cos people can’t cope. I am careful not to be too clingy or sensitive, but I am honestly not impressed with my city any more. I hung out with the animals at the zoo. I find humans that I resonate with are rare. I am tired of people pleasing. My normal is pretty polite and caring but the good thing is that my filter is off, and I can finally utter requests or a different view, or a no. For a long time I felt gobsmacked by what was going on in the family, didn’t want to rock any boats. The family was the most important thing to me, even though it seems such a failure. To me it is very unjust and also puts a blockage between me being able to relate comfortably with others. I carefully, be quiet about what is triggering, and there is an awful lot that can trigger me.

I actually liked it @AuntGlow thank you…. at first I thought it was Keith Jarrett…lol…

it would take a German to get the blend…

though we did have a metal singer soloist when I used to do chorus in Opera in the Alps and the market….

I don’t listen to much music, any more, no real rock any more, not for decades. Teach a bit if appropriate. Whatever. Mostly I listen to what I am working on, if it is worth it.

YAY! It's really theatrical, so obviously I enjoy it a lot. @Appleblossom

oooh, that's really interesting. Opera in the Alps?! EXCUSE ME? I need to know more (within anonymity, of course).

I wonder what it would feel like to enjoy music just for you again? 🤔

@AuntGlow

https://www.melbournecb.com.au/newsroom/latest-news/opera-in-the-market

https://operascholars.au/opera-in-the-alps

I did them for around 15 years. I was only in chorus so not a soloist or big name.

Last gig just before lockdowns.

Event began as transitional for recent graduates into professional roles. I have respect for the founders who were always decent to me. I was professional and self reliant. They were fabulous and not snobs. They aged out and it is more boutique for the scholars and not such big events. I have been very FORTUNATE to have lived a RICH and varied work and musical life. I once gently teased the Everything music thread that it was a bit limited by the tastes of a few, and patiently backed off, but not completely out. Maybe that’s why they were careful in creating the name of the new thread.

Mainly got into it due to son’s interest in opera, and it gave me something productive to do when he was on access with his father. Later I got him into it, but it was too little too late for him. Got the mother of my grandson into it. Maybe she was the problem. Hmmm.

I am doing music for myself again in the last 3 years. Different instruments. Quieter gentler deeper tessitura. Poor apple tablet doesn’t know that word. Concert this weekend.

However was up at 4am pondering the excesses of the leader of that ensemble, who only has 7th grade but insists on sniping at people, even those far more qualified than him. I first met him about 7 years ago, had a mild crush on him till this March, but he has blown that out of the water. I am committed to concert, and uncertain of how I will proceed Small ensembles can have very finely attuned group dynamics and varying loyalties. Apparently he has put off many fantastic musicians over the years. We will see how it goes…

then the next day I have rehearsal with another group for a recording in October. Just structuring my life as well as I can. It’s great to have been able to do LIVE music all my life.

hugs @Dimity @Cuddlebear @Shaz51 @Emelia8

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grok

I learned a new word that has lots of resonance for me

thought of you @AlwaysMyself