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Walking to water the guerilla garden and a young fella with his window down... waited for me to cross the road. He did not need to, I thanked him and he said "no worries". It was about 10 metres from the spot that I sat in traffic about 7 years ago. I was feeling pretty invisible then. At least I know I am a visible person now and not a ghost. Yesterday a few nodded and smiled as I went to the shops. A couple things got cancelled today, one by them, one by me. Gotta keep doing it. Keep getting out. Physical. Nature.

Attagirl @Appleblossom . My neighbour called in for a chat, then when walking to/from the shops 2 neighbours greeted me and I greeted a rooster and a currawong. Very nice after feeling triggered and voiceless for a couple of days.

Oh thanks for dropping in Dim @Dimity

love talking to the animals and the birds, the odd human helps.

Cant believe I am still here. Pretty gnarly and a bit bitter and twisted, but also feel joy and love and hope. I am a weird chic. Feelings all over the place. Lucky I have them, I guess. Was pretty down and triggered and hopeless with all the world stuff about levels of politics, micro, referendum and abroad.

Me too re state of the world @Appleblossom . But remembering the unkindness of my mother when I asked for a jumper for an Aboriginal lad when I was 10. I could never have asked for anything for myself. It's so hurtful to have it confirmed that none of us deserve/deserved to be heard. There was so much pain. Still is.

I'm soldiering on in my thankless crusade to preserve local trees. My next door neighbour is an unlikely ally, giving me moral support. I hope you can fend off the court ladies who've taken a disliking to yours.

Good you have moral support about the tree/s. @Dimity you read the other thread... lol

The one in our court predated me. I did not plant it, its on council land, and gives shade and helps a green corridor. I work around it, dont complain, use the fallings for mulch, keep it tidy. I had some healing moments when I first arrived in a new barren estate and all there was builders clay, the tree and cyclone fence ... I loved rubbing the seeds in my hands for the smell ... silly childish... my cat died under it. There are lots of plantings under and around, and the council works with me on it... does the odd prune.

There is still hope for discussion on the local issues if we dont get all divisive, and I'm right/he's wrong ... yes and no ... tends to polarise ... I am having lots of conversations that are good this week. Its no longer alright to make offhand racist comments, which used to make me cringe, and withdraw, and there is a shift in attitudes whatever the actual vote ... had a wonderful 2 hour conversation with a true blue Aussie farmer lady and Hong Kong Chinese lady about lots of aspects of different languages, culture, hybrid mix, and misunderstandings and joking and goodwill. Nuanced, heartfelt. Had dinner the night before with my arty beauty mechanicky friend ...who I adore.... we talked about the issues with care and respect. Hope the trickle effect changes hearts and minds ...

Feel better for seeing your post. Funny how the forum can work.

Have a Good Weekend ... remember the ad ?

Hello @Appleblossom

How are you today my awesome friend 🙂

Hey @Shaz51 How are you?

Been offline a bit but busy. Upheaval inside but had someone to talk to about it all and that really helped.

hello and hugs @Appleblossom

wondering how you are today

Dear @Shaz51 Thanks for remembering me.

I have been away on a big train trip and doing lots of music, away from my computer.

I am doing alright. Took the phone but minimal use.

Read a really good book by this lady.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pm6NQMOc5Is

Hey @Appleblossom , good to see you home xx

Hope you had a good holiday

How was the train trip

@Dimity , @Faith-and-Hope , @fluffylight , @tyme , @Jynx