Fragile

Thank you my online friends. I have cancelled my appointment for the day and dinner will be easy and yum when I return.

I am listening to Sir Ken Robinson who also passed recently.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17fbxRQgMlU

@Appleblossom Thinking of you today. Farewells are never easy, especially the last farewell. Leaving some forget me nots, knowing you will never forget her, and lots of 💙💙💙

Hi @Appleblossom , thinking of you lots today on what must be a very sad and difficult day. Sending you

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@Emelia8 wrote:

I'm sure it will be a very sad and highly emotional farewell to your good friend tomorrow. I will be thinking of you and willing some strength your way. I hope there is some space reserved in your day for some quiet reflection and self care.

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What @Emelia8 said so well.

Hey @Appleblossom ,

Thinking of you too. I've been 'listening' to how you've dealt with this loss and it sounds like you've found a healthy way to do so, one that honours your friend and let's your souls grieve for the loss.

I didn't know that Sir Ken Robinson passed too, I just looked that up. I loved his talks.

Last night I watched Anh Do's brush with fame. It was with Sophie Delezio and I thought of you. She's an incredible woman. I'm not sure if you would like it or not. It's on iview. It's an uplifting one.

Thinking of you @Appleblossom . Hoping you are ok. 💕💕💕

So lovely to have my Sane Forum friends.

Thank you @Maggie @Teej

I am struggling today, but glad the cleaner came so I got up, opened blinds and did some cleaning and sorting too.

I farewelled my friend, though it was sad not to be able to meet for a meal after the funeral. I felt well acknowledged so it was worth the long drive and I think they liked my talk. My public speaking is getting better I guess.

Came home to letter and phone call about my son. It is devastating and I am very heart weary. The doctor explained the situation more fully. I did not even know that people could be admitted to low dependency units. In my family it has always been straight to the high dependency. High trauma loads. HIs father said he was spoiled, but I know, and a nurse confirmed, that they cant really act that unwell, and that it is "real". The father calls others spoiled and arrogant now, there is no use my expressing my feelings about his behaviours 30 years ago when I left work to help him out. He can see when my son bites the hand that feeds, but not see how much he did that all throughout marriage. I absorbed so much of the dad's grandiosity and rants and raves and inconsistencies. It is what it is.

I have done physio exercises and will go for my walk soon ... ish.

I talk to my son everyday, keep it brief, but eventually told him about friend's passing, as he knew her and her family. He could took it reasonably yesterday. Some of his intensity had reduced to allow for listening to new information. Thats good I guess.

Hi @Appleblossom . I'm really pleased that your talk was well received, as it should be. Its always so hard farewelling someone you knew well and had an obvious affection for. I'm sad for you, that you were unable to mingle with others after the funeral. A part of covid-safe life now I guess.

Am I to understand that your son is to be admitted to a (permanent) low dependency unit? Sorry to hear that the news you received from the doctor, was devastating. But I suppose its good to have a clearer picture on where your son is at, and likely to be in future.

Well done on finding the motivation to complete your physio exercises. Hard to do after so much heart weariness and bad news over the past few days/weeks. Enjoy your walk this afternoon. I hope the weather is good, and helps you to enjoy being out in the sunshine and fresh air.

Emelia 🌺

Thanks for posting to me @Emelia8

I know you have been going through a lot lately too.

I do not think they have long term units anymore. They went through a phase called deinstitutionalisation through the 1990s. Its mostly "community" managed. This thing called a "case manager"??. Sadly a lot of revolving doors.

@Appleblossom I wondered how things were, after the farewell. It often floods in later. I’m sorry you are struggling today.

It sounds like your talk was well received . It can’t have been easy.

Its hard to express what I’m trying to in regards to your son. It all must be so hard, and reminders of past struggles. Heart weary is very descriptive I think.

I hope the sun shines on you during your walk. And I hope for some moments of light, no matter how small.

Sending 💕💕💕☀️☀️☀️🌹🌹🌹

@Appleblossom