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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
For a while I have tried to find a thread I had started when I joined the forum that could be a "home" thread for me.
Being busy about the forum has been a coping style, where I can acknowledge all my different life experiences that had been silenced. Possibly do some good and prevent things from getting worse. Like the little boy with the finger in the dyke.
Feeling fragile
Needing Nurture
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
Thank you @frog @Maggie @Faith-and-Hope @eth
@MazaritaIt is beautiful and the colouring is subtle. Hummingbirds might be good for me to research ...I was entranced by birdsong at the physio today. There was taped show, flurry of clinic activity, the traffic of major road and LOTS of birds in the trees.
I would not be here, in half decent shape without the forum.
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MazaritaSenior Contributor
@Appleblossom tuning into birdsong is giving me nurturance as well.
The traffic here is very thin now. It's after midnight as I write. Just went out into the courtyard to be outside for a bit and look at the stars. It's is so unbelievably quiet out there, no traffic drone at all from the nearby highway. The quiet is both unnerving and relieving.
The forum was crucial at the time I joined in 2015, and helped me from the start. Being back here again after a hypo/manic year, is helping me get the pieces of me in better shape already. The companionship and friendship here has been a blessing for both of us. I still remember we joined within 24 hours of each other.
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
With all the thoughts of ANZAC day I still feel reflective.
Played "The Last Post" on recorder.
Posting this youtube as acknowledgment of the frontier conflicts in Western District.
Reflecting on psychologist who was abusive in last 2 sessions. Time to say good bye to her. I put a lot of positive in and she could not provide any targetted therapies or basic support. Some of them do need to learn about significant trauma load, and what is work ...
Coming to terms with how dissolved my boundaries have been... soft or spongy idk ...
Time to move forward.
Not sitting with pain for too long. She is young 40ish, without children and immature.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
Thank you @outlander
She had the hide to say to me "you overindulge your pain" and "while you are laying there..." I am considering making a complaint. I always brought positive stuff to sessions. On the last day I showed her my paving work. She had no targetted therapies to offer ... which was the basis of the funding ... she was off with her own fairies. Having sufficient rest has been crucial to me coming good physically and emotionally and taking responsibility and giving back.
Sometimes older people can be stuck in their judgments, sometimes middle aged are overwhelmed by obligations to see beyond their noses.
One never knows til we have a go.
My new learning is not to stay in bad situations, submitting or succumbing to paralysis of decision making for too long. I am free to leave.
@Former-Member @frog @Faith-and-Hope @Maggie
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MaggieSenior Contributor
You are free to leave @Appleblossom and good on you for making the decision. It’s not easy. I hope you find a therapist who is helpful. Take care 💙💙💙
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
Hugs incoming @Appleblossom ..... looks to clearly be a turn in your road in a new direction ...... keep taking good care of you Hon 🍎🌸
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
Thank you @Faith-and-Hope @Maggie @Sans911 and @Former-Member
I do not think I will rush into looking for a new one, but work with current supports, including the forum. I will do my Occupational Therapy Exercises and other Emotional Exercises from the net, keep it a steady part of what I do.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
👍 Soubds like a plan @Appleblossom ..... keep going you ❣️
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