My Nut shell

Why Do does it feel like I'm by myself on here
I have no one to talk to
I feel so lonely and lost
And there's no one to talk to
I just wish I had more friends on here

There's a cold dark corner
in the back of my room,
it speaks to me
and says I'm coming for you.

As I lie on my bed
in the fetal position,
my eyes are closed
hoping and wishing.

Maybe that one day
my dreams will come true,
that I don't have to be here
so down and blue.

The corner keeps talking
about how I'm going to die,
all I can do
is lie there and cry.

As the corner gets closer
and takes me in,
my soul starts to burn
as so does my skin.

My bones shall lie there
turning to dust,
my bed surrounding
nothing but rust.

In times of trouble and insanity
I carry masks to disguise
the pain I carry
secure behind my eyes

I can never let out again
the misery I hide
to hell with my dignity
to hell with my pride

from this day forward
and for ever more
I will mount this mask
that will be my lore

No reaching out when I am weak
no solace will I seek

when you look for answers
when you say your prayers
all you will see is masks
and no pain that I bare

Starting to feel depressed again. I don't want to go back in this world again. I hate it. I dread it. But it feels like I can't stop it. I can feel it runny through my veins. I don't want it to come. I wish I had people to talk to. Just to talk about how I'm feeling. But I have no one. No one is here for me. I feel so lonely and isolated. I don't know what to do. It would be nice if some one would help me. Just talk to me. And help me. Be there for me. Sometimes it feels like I'm talking to myself on here.
That's all
Just lonely
And sad
And upset

hi @Zoe7

how are you

what did you do today

Hi @Zoe7
Sorry for the late reply

I didn't do much yesterday. Just watching my hubby drink his life away with his brother in law. Now his laying on the couch expecting me to do things around the house. Which I'm not doing doing today. I'm going back to bed until he does the things that need to be done. Not happy with him atm.

What ya doing today ❤