My journey

Hi @Former-Member It has been a while since I have checked in with you - sorry but I haven't been doing very well and have just started coming back on to the forum and connecting with people again. I have been thinking of you a lot though.

Hope you are doing ok and if not I hope you doing what you need to get through each day. Hugs and hugs

Hey @Zoe7

Thanks for the message, hope you are alright. I have been in qld for the last few weeks to clear my head & organise a few things. Just wanted some space as well so haven’t been talking much to anyone really.

My head was pretty dark when I wrote that post. Hope you are doing ok tonight. I had a few triggers prior to coming up this way and knew it was taking its toll on my mental state so I left town with Bub. Glad I did

Your post has made me smile @Former-Member - so glad to hear you did something for you and your daughter that has helped you Hon. It is always lovely to hear from you and I am glad you are not in that dark place you were when you wrote that last post

btw - I would have gotten back to you sooner but I seemed to have quite a few notifications for a while that I didn't receive - some bugs in the new system that seem to be ironed out more now.

What are your plans for this week?

It’s honestly fine @Zoe7

I have slept a lot since here. Lots of things in the media have triggered me slightly but ok

We are heading back this week, Honestly just really missing my mum more than ever.

There have been lots of things in the media lately that have triggered me also @Former-Member - so I so get how affected you could have been also. I actually contacted the helpline a few days ago because although I was doing everything to avoid the media there were a few occasions that I didn't avoid - the person on helpline helped me a lot. i am in an ok place tonight so happy to chat about anything. I bet you do miss your mum - knowing you have her for support when you are home also. I am so glad you have taken some time out for yourself though - it would be nice to have some sunshine - been pretty cold and wet here this week.

I am really sorry you haven’t been coping to well too and that you have been effected via the media also @Zoe7

Hope you have had the right support through it.

I talked via helpline chat and also with my pdoc briefly @Former-Member - it seems like we can't get through a day these days without hearing something that is triggering - that is why I have tried to avoid all news reporting for a while - there is just too much of it to take in.

I had a really bad week a couple of weeks ago - my pdoc was away also so that made it extra hard to get through. I avoided the forum and didn't reach out for support anywhere - I do that often when I am in that really dark place - I don't want to burden anyone with how I am feeling - i know that is frought with danger for me though.

i am doing ok tonight and very happy to see you doing ok too - I do enjoy our chats. How much is your little girl enjoying your time away?

I hope I haven’t triggered you tonight @Zoe7

My daughter is fine, watching babe.

No you haven't triggered me @Former-Member - some things we just can't avoid as much as we try to. I am ok. It is easier to deal with when it isn't suddenly 'in your face'. I know you get how that is

Are you near the beach?

Ok. In Brisbane @Zoe7