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Too much pain. Please help.

Unicorn_Senior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 6:35 pm AEDT

Too much pain. Please help.

Firstly, thank you for your time.
I have been dealing with depression on-and-off for a long time now. Last time I got better, I thought it was going to be okay forever now. But sadly depression found me again. I have also indulged in self harming behaviour in the long as well as recent past.
So after more than a year, I’ve been put back on treatment.
Since the past few days I’ve been feeling very agitated. I am unable to explain what I am feeling exactly. But the closest I can get to it is that my mind feels too agitated and pained. I feel like I am going crazy. I have also been having self-harm thoughts because I think I am not being able to deal with the unsettled state of my mind. I just feel very helpless and alone. I just want to know if anyone can relate to any of this and if anyone can possibly explain to me what is exactly happening and why.
Also, I feel like I’m falling apart. I feel like I’m dying inside. And my head feels so messed up right now. I feel like I’m going crazy. I can’t even explain what exactly is up. There is just SO MUCH pain. The emotional pain and anguish is so bad that it’s manifesting itself physically. Every nerve of my body aches. And the physical aspect I can still deal with. But there is just too much pain right now, too much. And it’s just too much for me right now. I’ve spent the night crying hysterically and I can’t deal right now.

Please is there someone, anyone that can talk to me right now? I need it so badly.

I am sorry for causing you trouble and I am grateful to you for giving me your valuable time.

Once again, thank you so much for your time and efforts. I appreciate it very much. I hope today treats you wonderfully.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 6:56 pm AEDT

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@Unicorn_ You are definately NOT troubling me at all. I just want to help make you feel a bit better. Do you want to tell me about your favourite hobbies, or pets that you have even your favourite foot ball team?

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Unicorn_Senior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 6:57 pm AEDT

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@Bunniekins I am sorry that you had a bad day tomorrow. I hope today is treating you well.

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Unicorn_Senior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 6:58 pm AEDT

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@Bunniekins yes, I am under treatment right now. And I am taking time to adjust to it.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 7:00 pm AEDT

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@Unicorn_ Thanks Unicorn 🙂 yes today has been much better thanks. That is the best thing I think that nothing remains the same. It always changes life that is.:)

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Unicorn_Senior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 7:02 pm AEDT

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@Bunniekins that’s so true. I am truly glad that you’re feeling better today. You are one of the kindest people I know. I wish you well.

Thank you for your valuable time and help

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 7:04 pm AEDT

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@Unicorn_ I hope i have helped a bit. Wishing you a peaceful night with good thoughts Unicorn 🙂 I will see you later.

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Unicorn_Senior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 7:05 pm AEDT

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@Bunniekins you sure did help me. I wish you have the sweetest of dreams and a good nights sleep.
See you later. 🙂

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NatalieSSenior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 7:47 pm AEDT

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Hi @Unicorn_

Is it ok if I sit with you for a while.. I'm sad to hear you're in so much pain. I think emotional pain can be worse than physical pain, especially if we're feeling stuff but can't articulate what emotions we are feeling.

Please don't apologise for reaching out to people. We try and help each other, whether its talking or venting or just sitting. We all belong here. You belong. You are important.

Have you had some rest? Have you had something to eat and drink? Do you have something that may have soothed you in the past: maybe a book or movie or pjs or special blanket or soft toy? I have a toy donkey called Lord Byron Bray that I can cuddle in bed when I'm having not-so-good days. Is there something to distract you: maybe drawing, colouring in, a jigsaw, music or cooking?

Please be kind to yourself. We are here for you.

Take care. Hug.

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Unicorn_Senior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 7:55 pm AEDT

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@NatalieS you have no idea how much this means right now. Thank you, you’re a beautiful soul.
Of course you can sit with me right now. I would very much like it.
Hug.

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frogSenior Contributor14 Mar 2018, 8:17 pm AEDT

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Hello @Unicorn_ just wanted you to know I feel for you. Your pain sounds almost unbearable. I have been in a similar place, but not recently. I have Bipolar 1. The lows can be excruciating, but mixed episodes are more crazy making - depression plus agitation and irritability. It is a hard road but I am still here and you are too! You don't need to apologize for reaching out for help. You are very brave to do that and I hope you feel some solidarity from sharing the experience of others here. It sounds like you are in crisis right now. Try to focus on self care - sleep, rest, eating, soothing. If you have health professionals you can talk to try and be honest with them. Mental health professionals worth their salt are pretty hard to shock! I really hope you get some good sleep tonight. It's a foundation for me and I sometimes need medication to break a bad/lack of sleep pattern. Take care from a friendly frog.

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