The Virtual Village - a space for parenting 'stuff'

Hi, @Former-Member linked me into this thread.

I’m not sure where to start so maybe an intro and I hope others see my post and join in. Most of you already know me but just in short…

I’m 27 and dad of 2 boys who are 5 and nearly 2. 5 year old is technically a step child but I have been around since he was a baby. i had a beyond shitty upbringing of my own where i was removed from my parents care quite frequently before permanently removed and seperated from my siblings so carry a lot of trauma and anxiety but I am working through it and have for a long time. I’m overall in a pretty good space now but like everyone have my bad days. I have taken lessons from all of that I have gone through and use that in how I raise my own kids. I love being a parent I just love being a dad so much and I feel like I do an ok job at it too. Family comes first always has and always will. I spent a lot of time growing up looking after my siblings so I feel like caring for people is just in my nature. One of the best things about being a parent for me is seeing them learn things, our youngest is starting to speak more and more now and I love it when he comes up with a new phrase, he’s just starting saying hi daddy wow, all the time. And I love seeing our oldest grow and start to do more things on his own now that he’s about to start school, he’s got a bit of swag about him. I love seeing them play together. One of the biggest challenges for me as a parent is managing my own emotions when I’m stressed or overwhelmed and how I model that to my kids, sometimes it all gets too hard and I have to stop myself from yelling at my 5 year old to shut up because he’s asked for the same thing 11 times, you know, how I show my frustration and annoyance when I’m feeling that,I don’t want him to know that I’m pissed off because I know he can’t help it he’s a kid.when I’m feeling like that my logical thinking brain just goes out the window and a few times I have made decisions that were not ideal.
i work part time after a back injury has limited me from working my area of work full time and am home with the kids on the other days. I do really like being a dad

thank you for sharing with such vulnerability @ArraDreaming ❤️

I thought I'd tag a few people in this thread @Shaz51 @Ameth @Determined @destructive @Bunniekins @Bow @Smc @Faith-and-Hope @Krishna

And also @RedHorse because I haven't heard from you in a little while adn was wondering if you'd seen this thread ❤️