catching up

Well my angel, i am trainned in Commercial Cookery, i wanted to be a Chef when i was younger and did the TAFE course for it.

No i bought a roasting dish with a lid, so no mess in the oven, just a well roasted Chicken and pork.

Oh my angel, you need too be so careful, and you need to make sure the girls are too, make sure you take sun screen when you go to the beach.

No it was not that busy, i spread all the work over the day, so i just went at my own pace.

Oh my angel, that is so sweet, thank you, i am asure it smelled extra good being the first one. 🙂

I know Karen, the only person i would like to spend Christmas with is you, otherwise i just want to be alone, sleep the day away, and forget about it. You are right no one understands, that is why i am so glad i know you, you understand, and that is why it would be so nice to spend christmas together, we would not have to pretend, it would be just like another day to us.

I know my angel, i really feel for you, i just hope tomorrow and the 2 weeks go quickly, i am going to be here for you the whole two weeks, every day, without exception. i really don't know how you do it, i would have made mum throw out the bed and everything in the room if that happened to me. if it where my child that happened too i would sell the house. i don't understand why you have to go through all this and risk going back to the MHU just for your mum? sorry i just don't understand how she can be so cruel.

Karen you are my friend, my life now, and always will be.

I am so glad my angel, you so deserve to feel special, you are a special woman, and i will only shower you with kindness, it is the least i can do for the woman who has saved my life.

Yes, i do all the cooking, well most of it, i can cook from the simplest meals to the most complicated meals, deserts everything.

Karen, i don't understand why you can't go to Phillip Island and stay at a caravan park? I am sure their is so many other places to go? Karen i am so scared you are going to end up back in the MHU or worse, i can't lose you my friend, you mean to much to me, please promise me if you feel like you may do harm to yourself you will go home? please promise me?

Karen you should not have to punish yourself, i am sure the girls love the beach and the park, but they love their mum more, Karen, you are all they need, when they grow up you are all that is going to matter to them. I know why you are doing it though Karen, but you have to promise me you will not risk your safety?

OK My Princess Elf 🙂 wishing you luck, have everything crossed, i know you can do it. remember tippy toes and DON'T GET CAUGHT 😄

My angel, you did so well, you should be so proud, i can't believe you managed not to get caught 🙂

Yes, the mind is a powerful force, so we need to make sure it is in the best place at all times, so the bad stuff does not creep in.

Karen, you are not coping, you are really struggling, i don't think it is the Psych trying to avoid Emergency, it is something you will need to think about, because you are under so much stress at home, you mother, your family, and your girls take so much out of you, your safety is paramount, healthy mum, healthy kids 🙂

Try to see how you go, i know it is tough, i know you have so many responsibilities, but your safety is everything. i just want you to be better. i want to see the real Karen shine.

I know he was a horrible monster, can i ask a question? you don't need to answer, ok, what did he do to be a good husband? what did he do to make you happy?

I know it is hard to let go of things you have been told for so long, i still have trouble letting go of the past too, but Karen, all i see is a beautiful soul, loving mother, caring friend. you are such a wonderful woman Karen, you courage and strength astounds me, all you have been through, only a handful of people have suffered like you have, please remember if he was still her you would not be, and maybe the girls would not be here either.

Karen you need to see things from this point of view, he was so cruel, he ws not nice, and he was the one who made things miserable for you and the girls, he chose to treat you like a slave, he chose to dis respect you and the girls. i am so glad you are free of him.

I just hope one day i can help you see you are a great person that has endured a lot, you are such a loving doating mother, you should be so proud of yourself, your girls are so smart, all thanks to you.

It is sad the girls can't think of anything nice with him, but i bet they can think of good times with you 🙂

Karen, don't allow those bad thoughts to stay too long, you are so much better than what they are telling you.