catching up

Yes i know my angel, something so simple as breathing, we really need to try to be more mindful.

Yes Karen i have heard people saying that about me too, it is so hard and hurtful to hear, today the checkout person and some people sitting near by where stairing at my hands shaking and one even pointed to me, i was so embarrassed. it makes me just want to hide away from everyone.

Karen i think that is why you and i want to hide away from people, it just hurts too much to be judged, i often feel like i have lepracy or something they can catch, people are so scared of me, i feel like an outcast, i so wish i could just have a little hut in a forest with no one but the animals.

oh yes you, me and the animals, it would be so nice.

how are you now, are you calming down a little? if you need to sleep, please don't let me keep you up.

what are the plans for the weekend Karen?

Good night my angel, only beautiful dreams tonight please Karen.

I wish i could sleep, i am so exhausted, you are so lucky.

Big hugs

Jacques

well my Angel i am sure you are in the land of nod by now, hopefully no night terrors, i have too much adrenaline pumping through me to sleep 😕

i hope tomorrow goes well, i am sure you will be relieved that you can drop the girls off and go to the awards ceremony at the same time.

i know you will struggle, but i will be right their beside yoou cheering you on.

you are so amazing Karen, how you do all this i do not know, you are so special to me and i am sure to the girls too 🙂

i am sure when you read this in the morning you will be in a rush. i will be here for you tomorrow.

take deep breaths Karen, watch your breathing and if you are worried about the sweatig, try to wear loose clothing, that is what i do.

my thoughts and well wishes are with you my angel

big hugs

jacques