catching up

Thank you so much for the support today Karen, you really are my guardian angel, you are always watching over me, i am so lucky you allowed me to be your friend, thank you.

Well, i was a mess by the time i got their, my hands where shaking so badi could not sign my name on the form, i am struggling to write this now. the sweat was so embarassing, the stuttering, i felt like passing out walking down the corradore, i collapsed in the chair when i got into her office.

I managed to get some words out, that my anxiety is worse and that i was so tired all the time and not sleeping well, she said she could not change the medication without me seeing a psychiatrist, so no good their, i will just have to struggle on, so still on the same med's 😕

Thank you once again Karen, you are a wonderful friend, i could not ask for anyone better, thank you, and sorry for ruining your day, i know i shut you out, i am sorry, it is just how i deal with things, i just shut down.

Big hugs Karen, you are special to me.

Jacques

I am exhausted but i managed because of you, i was so out of control until you messaged me telling me to distract.

I have had a nice shower, and am listening to music to distract.

Karen you did more than you know, knowing someone cares, that someone is thinking of me, it is so nice, especially from my best friend. Thank you my angel. i can't thank you enough.

Yes but like me you manage Karen, we fight every day, even when we don't want to. thank you Karen.

Thank you Karen for understanding, i really don't know how you manage this every day, you are so strong, i really look up to you. you are amazing.

Yes, she was asking a lot of questions, i was getting very nervious.

I am trying to watch my breathing, my hands are really shaky and my chest feels like it is being crushed, you know how it is. i am a little calmer, thank you for asking.

How are you going Karen? Are the girls a little calmer tonight? i bet you are excited the builders are finishing tomorrow? have they upped the price?

Yes i know i have to be vigelant, if i am not watching my breating goes haywire.

Wow standing on their heads, sounds like another full on night for you 🙂

Yes i know how hard it is Karen, i have the same problem, trying to pretend all the time is exhausting.

Yes my angel, it must be so hard, Oh Karen, i hope they do the right thing, you don't need anymore trauma from men.

Oh Karen, i am so sorry, i am sure i did not help when you where struggling, i am sorry i was not their for you Karen, i was not a good friend today, i promise i will be here for you tomorrow.

I am so thankful you have these valuable services, i am glad they helped. i am proud of you Karen, you realised what was happening and acted to prevent the worst of it. big hugs Karen, i am proud of you.

Karen i will be here for you tomorrow, try to find a cafe that is quiet while you are waiting for you car to be serviced, or a park or somewhere quiet. that is what i do.