catching up

Have you thought about 'designing' your new bedrooms or soething in the new house? where will the girls beds go? arrangement of stuff? what colours etc for their rooms? maybe to give you a picture to hold onto for what you're working towards in the future where youc an see yourselves?

lj

I window shopped on ebay tonight- id love to get myself the mad max car for the shelf. I really like cool old model cars, or interesting mechanical black and white photography.

I draw pictures on a4 paper of what id love to do to a room if i could renovate it- colour, furniture etc.

Im out of here for the night hiddenite- i hope you find some thing tonight to help keep you safe.

Baboo

yes my angel, anything you need, i am holding you tight, put your head on my chest ,listen to my heart beat, you have helped it slow down, you have made it calm, breath with my heart beat Karen, i am stroking your long blond hair, you are safe with me Karen, i will not hurt you in any way.

Karen try progressive muscle relaxation, i will do it with you if you like?

Karen, please promise me you will stay safe?

Then promise me you wil lgo to the emergency department now? if you can't stay safe, go somewhere where you can be safe.

Please Karen, i am begging you cal llifeline, 1800 RESPECT or suicide call back service......

I feel so helpless and scared Karen, i know you feel alone and scared too, please Karen, you need to fight, you need to live.

Karen, you have survived 24 years of abuse and made it out the other side, you can do this Karen, you are strong, to me you are amazing, i can't lose you, you are the best thing to happen to me.

Karen, you are only 44, you have so much life left, happy times, fun times, so much to experiance, please Karen, Please