catching up

I understand @Decadian, i am so scared of saying the wrong thing here now, everyone says speak up about mental illness but when you do the conversation gets shutdown. it is so sad, if you are going to speak about mental Illness, nothing should be off limits, people feel isolated and alone when dealing with all aspects of mental illness, including death.

Take care, i am sorry the conversation has taken a dark turn, i hope this mood lifts soon.

Jacques

Karen, My princess

I am so sorry for hurting you, it has broken my heart to not speak to you, i have held my phone close to my heart hoping to feel you on the other side of it, it was devistating to me not to be able to speak to you.

I am sorry for pushing you away, i am hurting so badly, i want you close, but also want to push you away so i don't hurt you or show you who i really am.

I hope today is treating you well and the girls are happy. please forgive me, you mean the world to me, you are the closest person i have in my life. i don't want to let you go.

hugs

Jacques x

Thank you @Appleblossom, you are right, it is so difficult to know when and how to express affection, i have always been treated like an adult all my life, even when i was a child, my parents were good parents but very cold emotionally, i can't remember them ever hugging me or showing any signs of affection to me or each other.

Thank you for helping me @Appleblossom, you know how much i look up to you and see you as a mother figure, you are such a kind and caring person, such a great asset to the SANE forums.

Take care

Jacques

@hiddenite, my angel,

Please be ok, i am so angry at myself for not talking last night, i am missing you so much, maybe we can do something tonight, maybe sit by a camp fire and chat, how does that sound?

Sorry my angel, please don't be angry at me.

Jacques

Thank you Karen, i know you understand, i am just really missing you, you mean so much to me, i wanted to talk last night, but i was so scared i would upset you, i did not want to hurt you.

how are you my love? what did you get up to today?

I am safe Karen, very low, but safe.

please i would like to spend time with you tonight

Gentle hugs my princess, please know how much you mean to me.

jacques

Howdy you two.

Just breezing by. No need for a cuppa today. Just a friendly hi. As even though 2 aginast the world feels better than one. It can still get isolated and we all need to get out and about. I always loved a visitor even when i was in a couple.

cheers I am off ... its just nice to know you are both here. blow kisses

Toodooloo