catching up

Hope you are well my princess,

Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you, missing you.

Lots of love

Jacques x

Hi Jacques how are you?
Its been such a busy day. Im so exhausted. I saw my psychiatrist then went to the girls school sports and a paedatrition appointment.

I missed talking to you today I wish we could just sit with one another and talk.

karen

I am OK, my friends funeral was on today, I had not seen him in 15 years, but I just could not overcome my fears to go to it, I feel so guilty.

I have missed you so much, but I know you are a very busy lady, I hope all the appointments went well for you.

Oh Jacques im so sorry. You can say goodbye in your own way it doesn't necessarily have to be at a funeral. We all process these things differently.

You are a kind caring and compassionate person never forget that j
karen

He was really helpful to me after my father's death, he mentored me through some tough times, he was so good to dad too, mum went to the funeral.

I am going out their to pay my respects on the weekend.

Please my angel, try to get some rest this afternoon, you have achieved so much today, I am so proud of you.

I just want to hold you close Karen, I feel safe with you.

I am here for you Jacques you are not alone hugs to you.

thats good you will be able to say goodbye .

Come over to me Jacques gentle hugs its been a difficult day for you.

Thank you my perfect girl, why do I still feel so ashamed of my illness, everyone knows, I am just so scared of seeing anyone from my past.

Embarrassed about my illness, embarrassed about my life, embarrassed about my lack of achieving anything.

I just wish I could be normal, I love you so much Karen, please never leave me

I'm not going anywhere Jacques your stuck with me:)

Whats for dinner j.

Karen, my world is becoming smaller, you seem to be the only person I care about, I know no one in this town anymore, he was my only friend, I was so rude to him, he did so much for me, and I just stopped speaking to him one day because of my anxiety, I gave him no reason why I would not speak to him, I am a horrible person Karen.

I am so frightened that I will do that to you one day, that I will become scared of you, I just don't want to lose my only friend, my love.

Dinner is chicken Kiev and veg, how about you?

Sausages and vegetables.

Jacques we need to enjoy the here and now. Appreciate every day we are together its a blessing.