catching up

hi Karen,

I hope you are at home now resting, or maybe that is just wishful thinking on my part 🙂

I tried so hard to go to sleep this afternoon, but no go, i am so tired and exhausted, i really don't know how you manage to do so much of a day, i would not be able to do it.

I hope you got some rain, and it is nice and cool where you are still, it is really hot here, the AC is pretty much useless, but i suppose it is old, maybe it is past it's used by date.

I am so proud of you Karen, it has been such a busy week, you fought and fought and managed to make it through another week, all of the traveling and the mishap with the spider, and the builders, but you managed to accomplish it all with such strength, you really amaze me what you are capable of doing.

Hope we can speak some more when you feel up to it.

Sorry if i am getting too involved in your building reno's, i am just worried people are taking advantage of you. you deserve so much better.

big hugs.

Jacques

Hi Karen,

I hope you are not feeling too down tonight, i know you have had a very busy week, but now you have the weekend, i hope you manage some rest.

My thoughts are with you my angel.

Tonight i put the second coat of paint on the motobike exhaust, it looks good, the whole bike is looking better than when mum bought it for me in 1994, it is almost like new.

I hope you have had a nice tea and a nice hot shower. wash the week away.

Well take care my angel. Big hugs

Jacques

I thought you would be doing it tough tonight, you have done so much through the week, so have the girls, they are probably tired too, you have all done so well, i am so proud of you Karen, what you have managed to achieve, i cant put into words how impressed i am.

Wow 12 degrees, Rain and hail, well it is 28 degrees here at the moment, not looking even close to raining, i do wish i lived in a cold climate, because i am so overweight i really feel the heat.

Yes, i am proud of how the bike is going, i have only made 1 mistake of ordering some bolts 5mm too long, so i am happy with that, a new set are on the way.

Karen i often worry i am intruding too much on your life, i know sometimes i can be overbearing and struggle to understand how social interaction works. I do hope things work out and the work men at least do a good job.

Karen you are not nieve, just scared, i know you struggle with standing up for yourself because you have not been able to in the past, if i was in your position i would probably let them do what they want too, it is so easy for me to say do this and do that behind a computer screen, in reality i don't think i could actually do anything different than you have done.

The cool change is comming through now from VIC so it is cooling down quickly.

I hope tonight the girls settle down and you get some quiet time. Some Karen time

Thank you my angel,

i am so glad you think i am ok, i always worry i am going to do something to push you away, i could not bear it to be without contact. you are so important to me now.

Tonight i am listening to some sad music, and chatting to my best friend.

I hope you are resting up, i am having some date and wallnut loaf if you would like a piece. it turned out more like a pudding, it is soo good. i only cooked it yesterday

I am so happy to hear that Karen, i often worry that i am being a creep, or a weirdo, in my town that is how i am seen, i am so terrified you will see me as a creep too.

People here are so scared of me because i don't socialise, i am a loner and i never smile. i suppose people confuse my anxiety for agression.

OMG Karen, how can it be so cold their, i have the AC flat out, i am sitting at my computer with only a pair of shorts on!!!!!

Oh Karen, i am so sorry, it is so hard when peopel comment on your weight, i know it is different for women, but i am so self consious of my weight, i try to accept it, but i would so love to be thin just once.

Karen i am sure i remember you saying you injured your knee, so it is not weight related, even if you lost weight you would still have problems. Karen, you do so much, i do understand how it is so hard to get motivated when you are so tired, i have not excercised i nalmost a year now, i am so unfit, i can bearly mow the yard.

Karen i am so worried about you going off medication, if you do please check in with me every day, i am so worried you will do something to yourself if you go off it, please at least speak to your doctor.