catching up

My angel, my thoughts are dark too, but we can fight together, Karen, before you where fighting this on your own, now we can fight them together, support each other and encourage each other, Karen, you are not alone anymore, the feelings i have for you are so strong, i just want to keep you safe all the time, it is about management of the dark thoughts, and not let them get so bad that you need to be hospitalised, if we work through the thoughts, maybe we can help them pass more quickly.

A good friend has told me they are just thoughts, you don't need to act on them.

Karen, try to look to the future, i am trying so hard to do the same, my dream is to one day meet you, that is my light at the end of my tunnel, what is yours?

Oh my angel, that is wonderful, gosh our hearts really do beat together, don't they?

My angel, when the day comes i will make sure you feel comfortable and not scared of me, you are so precious to me, i want you to feel safe. Karen, i never thought i would ever hear you say you would be comfortable in my presents, it means so much to me that you trust me enough to allow me near you, it means so much. thank you.

I know how scary it must be, i know i was so frightened when i had to go to my psychiatrist, Karen, you have to have faith that they will see progress, you have progressed so much Karen, when you where last in the MHU we where just friends, now our relationship has blossomed, we are more than friends now. no matter what happens from here on, you will always have me standing by your side, i trust you with my life Karen, you have kept me alive and safe. their is no way i can pay you back for what you have done for me, i just wish my small token of support is enough thanks for all you have done for me.

I love you Karen, you give me a reason to live.

My angel, you are so welcome, always remember

the past is the past and the future is the future, so live in the moment

Karen, you bring me so much peace, you have no idea, when i am alone in my bed of a night, i think of you, your long blond hair, your blue eyes, and us sitting by a river, stairing into each others eyes, no need ofr touching because our minds are already their, we just enjoy each others presents, nothing else matters.

what are you up to tonight to help you distract? is their anything i can do to help you stay in the moment?

Me too my angel, just being with you and thinking about you is enough, you are my guardian angel, you are my world..

That is so beautiful Karen, i wish i had a halo 😄 i am so glad i make you happy, you make me so happy, you are the first woman i have had feelings for, you are my first crush, my first love.

Good night my angel, please only sweet dreams tonight, i am going ot be here for you tomorrow, all day, i will keep my phone with me, if you need support anytime i am just a message away.

My angel, i know you are with me, i hope you are snuggly warm in my sleeping bag with me, i know it is nice snuggling with you 🙂

jacques x

Oh my angel, it is sunny today and i am going to go to mum's friends house to help them paint some chairs, i am feeling very relaxed and calm, i feel at peace.

My angel, it is nice to think you are blushing, you make me so happy, you are the first girl i have fallen for, to me you are the only girl for me 🙂

I know my angel, try to watch your breathing, focus on what is around you, maybe try to hear some birds, or count cars, look at some buildings for some ideas for your house.

My angel, sometimes it is the small things that make us panic, it is their, just try to manage the symptoms, think of me sitting beside you holding your hand, feel safe with me Karen, i feel safe with you.

i am here for you my angel, i will have my phone with me, ready to chat anytime.

hugs my sweet princess.

jacques x