catching up

Ok my angel, please remember you are not alone, you are in my thoughts always. 🙂

Yes, i know what it is like, it is horrible, i was shaking and breathing heavily then i got the restles leg syndrome and gave up trying to sleep, so i sat up watching the stars thinking of you.

Yes, i am proud, sometimes i have a little more, but i am trying to get into a routine, i have only broken it a few times.

Are the girls comming to visit tomorrow? make sure you give them plenty of cuddles and reassurance.

Hey @Jacques, I've had restless legs this week which I think is connected to stopping my magnesium supplement. Sorry if I'm covering old ground here but have you ever taken these supplements? When I was using a magnesium oil spray I was getting better sleep and was less physically agitated at night. Then I got sick of the clammy feeling of it and gave up. Back to restless legs. I'm going to look into an oral supplement now. Thought it might be worth passing on.

Hi @Former-Member,

Nice to see you 🙂 yes i take tablet Magnesium, they do help sometimes, but i worry about taking to many of them, i am worried with regular use they could become toxic in my body and cause organ damage, i have read some stuff on patural products lately.

It is such a horrible feeling, i have read it is one side effect of my anxiety medication. gosh i am up to 7 side effects now, so diffcult to deal with when i am so exhausted.

Ah, you know more than me about it then. I've not done the research but it seems to make a difference. Thanks for the info. I'll look into the right dosage.

Yes, RL is incredibly annoying. It would be so amazing to be one of those people who fall asleep as soon as their head hits the pillow. My partner is one of those people. I'm not sure how I've let him live this long 🙂

Hope you and Karen have had a better week than everyone else. Seems to have been a bit grim. We need to collectively resolve for a better one next week.

No @Former-Member, both Karen and i have had terrible week too, but we are trying to stay positive together. 🙂

Yes, we all need to see the future as positive, i hope next week is ok for me, but i have been suffering bad panic attacks for a couple of weeks because my aunt is moving into my home 😞 she has Schizophrenia and is very triggering for me. she will not take medication and does outlandish things.

Just trying to look happy so mum does not stress about it, i think she is buying it because she seems less stressed.

Well done @Jacques. That must be a huge effort but a beautiful thing you're doing for your mother. I'm glad you've got this outlet to be real. I can only hope that the reality of your aunt will be less awful than your expectations. Sometimes being a pessimist pay off 🙂

Yes, well she has medical issues and can't be under stress, i am glad i can chat to people here, i feel so lucky to have been allowed onto this forum and been accepted so warmly 🙂

No i know what to expect, she visits 2-3 times a year. some expamples of what she does, well she stands on the roof of her car and dances, she has bent the door hinges and distryed a new car from jumping on it. then she puts signs up all over town saying silly things. she once went out gardening at the cemetary at 3am.

It is too stressful for me to handle. i am hated enough in the town i live in, having her here will make things so much worse, i am so uneasy with the people in my town, i just don't know how i can get out of this.

@hiddenite my angel,

You seem very quiet, please speak to me, i worry when you are like this. please let me comfort you 🙂

I know you have taken your night meds, so if you are asleep i will watch over you my friend, keep you safe.

hugs my angel, i am here for you.