catching up

Hi Karen & Jacques,

Long time no see. What have you both been up to?

Nik

It does, i know you are into crystals, this maybe one worth getting 🙂

No Karen, it is not a "blokey" thing to be into that sort of thing, i get my strength from you my angel, seeing you fight every day, helps me fight my own daemons

Karen, you have been frighting hard, but it seems to not be working, maybe she is right, a different way to approach this may help, what di she tell you? only if you don't mind Karen.

you do need to get control of these urges, they are not helpful, for you or the girls. i know the dpeths of depression, i have been their myself, but i always manage to drag myself out before doing myself any harm.

Something does need to change, you are such a wonderful person, i don't like seeing you hurting so much, their is so much to look forward to, do you think their is another way for you to control these urges?

My angel, you are fighting to good fight, you are trying really hard, i see you fighting every dya, i am so proud of you for that, maybe a change will help you have to fight a little less each day. that would be a good thing.

I am here if you want to talk, well i am having a shower soon, but after that i am all yours 😄 Karen, let it all out, whatever is in your head need to be free, so you can think of other things.

Gentle hugs my angel, hold my hand and we will fight together 🙂

You know what Karen, he is right, i don't seem to shake as much as i used to since i have been going out, the anxiety is bad, don't get me wrong, but i manage it better now.

Karen, sometimes it takes enormous courage to over come these things, i am still house bound, but not as much as i used to be, Karen, you will always have dark thoughts, you will always have anxiety, so do i, really bad most days, but we need to learn to manage these feelings, not let them rule our lives, but maybe find a way to co-exist. if that makes any sense.

Do you think you could try to do this? i am willing to try with you if you like, so you don't feel alone with it?

Yes, i agree Karen, sometimes it is really annoying to have anxiety, but it does serve to keep us safe, even when it comes at the wrong time 😞 That is a really good way of seeing it, the emotion will be their, i can garentee you, and you are right we need to tell ourselves over and over that we are safe.

I try to help you feel safe Karen, but if you can tell yourself too that owuld be great. all your past problems can't affect you now, memories are all you have to be scared of. if you can tell yourself they are just memories and they can't hurt you, i think this would help you.

he sounds like a wise man Karen, please try to work on this, i am happy to help anywhere i can. just let me know how 🙂

Oh I like that perspective @hiddenite

My 'mantra' is similar.. but I try to imagine the crappy emotion as a left in a river... and I just let is float by until it's out of sight.