catching up

Hahaha, oh my angel, are you being cheeky? 🙂

how are you my friend? thinking of you too my angel, just sorting more paperwork, oh my gosh their is so much of it, all the way back to 1994, every recipt, bill and payment. I think i am going to be at it forever 😄

hugs my princess, it is nice to see you a little more cheery and cheeky, thank you Karen, you are a wonderful friend.

Jacques

Hi my sweet princess, thank you, i am always so humbled by how you think of me, knowing how frightened you are of men, i feel so honoured you have allowed me into your thoughts and heart, you are a beautiful person Karen, so kind and caring.

Karen, we both fight so hard, if it was not for you i would not be here, it was your gentle, kind and caring personality that allowed me to have a friend, when everyone else has walked away from me, you stood by my side, without you i am nothing.

my angel i am so glad and proud you fought and struggled and soon you will reap the rewards of your efforts, a home for you and the girls, somewhere for all of you to feel safe, make happy memories and life your lives in peace. i hope one day you can take the girls to school, then go home and do gardening, or just sit on the patio and enjoy nature, and most importantly be at peace with yourself.

I know you can do it, i have been where you are, i have struggled with severe anxiety and depression, i still do.

my angel, i miss you every day, from the moment you go to sleep till the moment you post again, i am always waiting for my best friend. 🙂

care for you i will, haha my little yoda joke 😄

i will be honest, i have been struggling today Karen, strong urges, that is all i will say, they are so overwhelming.

I will manage them i hope, but it has made me think of what will happen to me in the future, i wish life was not so uncertain.

hugs my sweet princess, i am so proud of you, the past few days you have shown so much courage.

Jacques

Haha, it is ok my angel,

It is weird, the urges come on all of a sudden, i could so easily act on them, they are so strong, they come out of no where, nothing in particular triggers them, but they are very strong when they arrive.

I have had these feeling many times before, but never this strong. no my angel, their is nothing you can do, you are a wonderful friend, i just thank you so much for talking to me, i could not ask for a better friend.

my angel how are you feeling? is the fever going? please tell me the pain is subsiding?

Are the girls getting anymore settled at school or are they still struggling?

Sorry Karen,

I hope i did not trigger you, i am always saying silly things, i am so sorry.

rest my angel, i will watch over you tonight.

Sorry Karen, me and my big mouth.

Jacques