catching up

Oh you lucky thing, it is still quite humid here, i wish it was cool 🙂

it does wear me out, i can bearly keep my eyes open now, but i will stay awake till after lunch.

Oh my angel, i am so sorry, it is so difficult when these episodes come on, i know what it is like, you just need to keep yourself safe till they pass, my angel, you do need to rest, can you try to get some rest?

my angel, you need to keep trying, i know how hard it is to keep trying when you are so exhausted, but you must keep safe.

I am so upset with your treating team, they should not be employed in the MH service, can you do anything to disrupt the thoughts, loud music, some sort of sound? it works for me, my thoughts can't focus if their is too much noise.

gentle hugs my angel, it will pass, just do your best, that is all anyone can do, is their any friends you could visit? or family? someone to chat to?

Oh my angel, i am so sorry, you are the only one i talk to about my problems too, i can't burden mum because of her health, and i am too frightened to reach out to anyone else.

My angel, you are not hopless, you are so strong, you are reaching out everywhere you can for help, it is others that are failing you.

Well if no one will help, what can i do then my angel, would you like to talk the thoughts through? or discuss what is making you think this way?

I agree with the Psychologist, my body does the same as yours, it is a way for the body and mind to cope. it is not pleasent, we need to manage the symptoms and try to rationalise the thoughts, sometimes when these thoughts go around in our heads they turn into a catastrophy when it is just only thoughts.

I understand my angel, i don't want you any more distressed, it is so frustrating we can't talk openly, i wish we had direct contact, i would like so much to help you.

my angel, i will never judge you, i have not lived your life, so how can i? you have managed your past as best you could at the time, for you to survive the trauma you did, shows how strong and resilient you are.

All i can say without upsetting you too much is he is gone now, he can never hurt you again, you are moving on with your life, you are not giving up you are reaching out for help wherever you can, you are so amazing, i wish someone would offer you help. you are so worth it.

My angel, the system is broken, the trainning for "Psychologists" is so inadequate, and i can say that from personal experiance, a lot of the "Professionals" have problems of their own and should not work in the feild if they can't help or handle the trauma they have to deal with.

My angel, i will never give up on you, even when you give up on yourself, i will always be their to pick you up and dust you off 🙂

My angel, you must keep trying, reach out to anyone you can.

my angel i know how frustrating it must be, and having to retell the story does not help each time. but you must never give up, you are too important 🙂

My angel it is the system that has failed you, you are worth the time and effort Karen, you just need to find that one PPsychologist that is willing to help, their has to be someone Karen, just keep reaching out.

hugs my angel, you are awesome.

Jacques

Hi my angel,

i am glad you are thinking of ways to manage, i do hope you can reach out to that professional if you got the message, i hope someone will be able to help you.

Karen you mean so much to me i would do anything to help you, if that means breaking the rules, then so be it, but to me you are special and deserve respect and dignity.

Karen, i am managing on my own because i have great support at home, i am quite willing to support you my angel, anything i can do to help i will, i just wished we lived close by so we could go out or sit in a park and chat. i am finding it so frustrating having to watch what i say.

My angel, we each take a unique journey, if you feel you don't want to reach out at the moment, and you are able to manage the thoughts, then go with it, if you decide in the future you want to reach out, i will be here to give you all the support and help i can. 🙂

hugs my precious angel, you are special to me 🙂

Jacques