catching up

Karen no need to be sorry,

I was thinking about you all day, thinking this is what Karen goes through every day, i don't know how you do it, i can't even handle 1 day per week. Karen you are so much stronger than me, i really look up to you.

Yes, you are right, i did do it, but only just.

I am being booked into the GP next tuesday, i don't know if i can go through a change in medication, i am too scared, this one seems to take the edge off the anxiety, i think it is enough.

Hi @NikNik Nice to see you too,

Yes she is fine, she has to keep up medical appointments with her diabeties, so far so good, and she got some new glasses today.

Thank you @NikNik for being concerned, i am thankful for having you working for SANE, you are awesome.

Oh Karen i am so sorry, you feel that way, you mean so much to me, it upsets me you can't seem to catch a break, you seem to have so much go wrong, i just wish something would go right for you for a change.

I so wish i could help you more, i wish my words would be able to lift you up out of your woes.

Aw you are too kind @Jacques

Thank you for sharing your thoughts about Christmas and what it's like for you. It sounds like it's really tough. Makes me realise how un-merry christmas can be for those with anxiety.. it's not ideal - everything is amplified x 10 (crowds, family/social situations/ etc)

Is there any part of Christmas you find joy in? Do you have a special meal or type of food you have at Christmas?

i like putting up the christmas tree and playing christmas carols, the tree is going up tomorrow morning, so i am looking forward to that, but a few more weeks until christmas carols.

Food well, umm triffle and ham, oooh i love cooked ham for brekkie on boxing day.

I am lucky this year, i am going to be home alone, mum is going out for Christmas day and i am hoping no one comes to the house, it will just be me, so i am really happy now.

oh i was worried Karen, that they would take me off this medication and try others, i don't think i could handle my anxiety getting any worse, i will try Karen, but i can't promise anything, i am just too scared. i am already panicing about the appointment, and i have 5 days to go, oh, why does life have to be so tough, something so simple is so hard for me.

Karen i am so sorry you got so close to SI that you had to go straight to your GP, i wish i could have been their for you. i wish i could give you the biggest hug.

Wow i have not heard of any of those toys, i must be getting old. 🙂

Yes i know it must be a really tough day for you Karen, so many people around, will you get to see your brother and sister?

I do hope thye are nice to you, help you through the day.

Yes, this is the first Christmas i have felt comfortable with in 5 years, i always want to be alone for any special occasion, i will not even allow anyone to celebrate my birthday, i sleep that whole day and unplug the phone so no one will disturbe me.