catching up

Karen please don't be sorry, i totoally understand.

I know what it is like, i have many bad memories from the past too, i think it brings me comfort to hold onto things even though they hold bad memories, Karen please give it time, i suppose seeing all the stuff in storage allows you to know he can't hurt you any more, you are free.

Karen their is nothing wrong with not wanting to let go, it is all part of the greiving proccess, you are greiving for him and greiving for yourself. it is a lot to deal with, their are some things of my fathers i know i should let go but i just can't, like his last packet of cigaretts, their is still half a pack, i have sitting next to my bed, weird huh, i can't let go of his watches or pens.

Karen whatever helps you, just let it be, no matter how silly it is, we all have our little quirks, mine are weird to others, but sacred to me.

I still have my baptism crap even though i was abused by them, but i can't let go, it is like i need those bad memories to hold onto, it is very hard to explain

Karen, you share so much with me, and you are my best friend, i would tell you anything about my past, anything about me, Karen, you are not alone with this.

Maybe you could see this event as a way to let go of some of your past, just a little bit of it, let go of the past, and grasp a little bit of your future.

Karen, i know things are difficult, i know you are scared, i know you are dis associating, just allow it to be, breath, call life line if you need to, Karen you and the girls can start a new life, a happy life, you just have to grasp it.

Karen i am sure you where not in denial, you are just not ready to let go, the grieving process is a tricky thing, we all grieve in different ways, Karen it is not silly, it is your way of dealing and coping with things.

KAren you will let go when you are ready to, don't try to force it, that will nto work, just allow your self time to heal and to work through you past, you had 24 years to work through, it wil ltake some time, i will hold your hand Karen, you are never alone, just allow things to progess at their own pace.

Good night my angel,

I am always here for you, you are my friend, i will hold your hand tonight, no bad dreams please, only good ones, i hope tomorrow is a better day.

Good night my friend. i wish i could help more

Jacques