catching up

Karen, i am so sorry if i am sounding like i am manipulating you, but i am really concerned your mother has alteria motives, i have never heard of making a loved one relive a trauma and then give them photos to add insult to injury.

I am really concerned about your wellbeing Karen, please call lifeline, who cares about the safety check, if that is what it takes to keep you safe.

I am so sorry i can't do more to help you my angel, i would never hurt you that way, i don't know how any one can.

it brings a tear to my eye to see you so distressed. i wish i could be their to comfort you my angel.

Karen i am so sorry for sounding happy when you are so distressed, i feel so bad, please put the photo's into your car or into your bag, please don't look at them while you are at that place, i am so scared you are going to harm yourself, please be safe, do anything you have to to stay safe.

Yes my angel, i have had a cup already, i am trying to be good and only have the one tonight.

Karen please keep talking to me, you are not bringing me down, i am just frustrated with your mother, that is all, i so wish i could tell her how much she is hurting you.

Thankyou Karen, the simple things in life makes me happy.

You make me happy Karen, please never forget that, you have a friend, you have someone who cares for you a lot.

Karen, it is your decision on what to do, i am very concerned about your MH, and you said the girls are very clingy to you, so they sound scared too.

Karen your body and mond have gone into protection mode, listen to them, they are screaming out to you to keep safe

I know what you are saying Karen, but you can't let go, your mind and body are trying to protect you, that is why you feel numb, please kkep chatting to me for as long as you like my angel, i am going to be here, all night if i need to, i will make sure you are safe.

Karen i just bought the two top cabinets today, they where on special for half price, i was going to tell you, but everything going on for you, i thought it would be inappropriate.

It is so nice to start to get the house into a liveable state again, i so wish i could help you Karen. maybe you can give me some pointers when i start rebuilding the kitchen, i would love your input

yes the cupboards where down from $128 to $69 so i was excited with the purchase, that is all the top cupboards done, all i have to buy is 5 bottom cupboards and the benchtop. I am going to do it all myself, we can't afford to get proper builders in, i do an ok job, not professional by a long way, but anything will be better than what is in their now, it is so disgusting.

Mum and i are even getting plans together for the big pond in the back yard, we are going to do a full size pond this year, 5 meters wide by 9 meters long.