My special place

Cuppa time it is @Snowie

It took me ages to feel comfortable with my psych so I understand you being hesitant.

I’m about to have strawberries, passion fruit and ice cream. I’ll share if you want some.

Sounds yummy @Eve7

I hope you enjoy it. Haven't eaten dinner yet, not sure if I can stomach anything except for tea at the moment.

I am hesitant to open up to my psych. I am scared to open up to anyone at the moment. If I say what I am really thinking then I am scared of what will happen.

Opening up might keep you safe @Snowie I understand the fear of opening up as I hung up on scbs when they asked my location recently.

Next week is my baby girl’s anniversary. We were in a car accident when she was just 5 months old. I loathe that day and still wish I’d stayed home that day or that it was me who died and not her. My arms ached for years as I wanted to hold her and I still had milk for ages. It’s so hard but my S1 told me he was glad I didn’t die and that statement is always at the back of my mind when I want to stop living.

Sitting with you my friend.

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I am so sorry that you have had to go through that @Eve7 It must be so hard to get through that day, or any day for that matter. Please remember that we are here for you whether that be a lending ear or just someone to sit with you.

I am glad you have S1 to continue for.

Opening up is scary, I have already tried LL and that didn't help. I really don't know what to do.

I’m sorry LL hasn’t helped. I think the SANE counsellors are helpfull. Maybe just write out your thoughts and then at least, they’re not racing inside your head. I have a blog on my computer which is pretty negative but it helps to get it out.

When my first granddaughter was born, I was thrilled to hold her in my arms. I just love her to pieces and she wore some little jackets I’d kept.

Please stay safe @Snowie I care about you very much 💜

I'm worried that if I write it somewhere that H will see it. I know I should be able to talk to him about things but then that would show how weak I am and how much I am struggling.

I am trying to, just not doing a very good job of it.

I am glad you have your granddaughter, I am sure she is such a wonderful part of your life @Eve7

Maybe password protect it on your pc @Snowie

I didn’t share much with my h and I wish I had as he was so hurt by any attempt I made when he had no idea. It’s hard to tell those nearest to us and only you can make that decision.

it must be time for another cuppa hun

Goodnight @Eve7

Thankyou for listening to me tonight.

I think its best if I go. Please take care of you hon, you are so important and loved by so many of us here.

Take care sweetheart 💕💕

Good night @Snowie

Thanks for listening to me. Take care and please stay safe.

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