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Thanks all.

@Sans911I am a walking pharmacy atm!!!

Left with enough meds to last the week and have already had some prn today. Am going to take it easy the next few days

Thank you for the update @Snowie 🙂

I can really hear what you are talking about there with how being at home presents its own challenges and yet benefits too. I also hear an openness to looking into how things have shifted since before your stay, that's really great to hear you notice those changes. I hear many positives in there. Nice work @Snowie

Hope you are enjoying some puppy cuddles 🙂

Thanks @Former-Member, enjoying lots of puppy cuddles

So haven't updated for awhile so here goes.......

Last few days there have been lots of ups and downs since coming home. Struggled to handle all the questions irl of what hospital was like and having to make simple decisions like what to have for tea were struggles. I had a concert last night which I enjoyed but had to take lots of prn to get through. I am proud I got through it but so frustrated that I had to take so many meds just to get through the night.

Saw my pdoc this morning and he has increased a med during the day and increased one at night time too. All I feel like I am doing lately is taking meds. Have had to write down everything b/c I get so confused at times. I have brought some pill boxes (the ones with mon through to sun on them) so I can sort them once a week which seems to be easier.

Have applied for a DBT course but like everything there is a long wait time for it. The pdoc is looking at different things I can do till then until I get into a course.

It seems to be a very thin line between increasing my meds and not making me a zombie during the day.

I have only SH once since I got out of hospital so for me that is a big improvement. So if I can control those urges then I will be pleased. It is a slow process and I know that nothing changes over night, but hopefully this is the beginning of coming out of a really dark place.

I see my psych again tomorrow which will be good since I havent seen him for 3 weeks due to being in hospital, so will be good to run things through him and get his feedback from it all.

I think that is it. Will tag you but don't feel you need to respond.

@Sans911@Bunniekins@outlander@Faith-and-Hope@Shaz51

@Snowie sounds like you are having a few more steps forward than back which is good. I think that is all we can hope for it seems. I have one of the set of boxes for my son which I find invaluable whereas my pills are quite straight forward and havent been changed for awhile so I havent made any mistakes in that quarter.

Good news about your SH I hope that continues for you. I have been feeling more like SH in the last couple of days (having urges to scratch my face off) this morning. I dont know why I suppose it is all to be expected. Wish I could see Dr G again before he goes but that could be stretching the friendship as he doesnt charge me anything for the hour long sessions .... now I just have to wait to see my new psychiatrist.

oh went for a walk yesterday morning with my daughter and slipped on some dewy grating and now am sore and sorry. That is what you get for doing exercise! Better to stay curled up in bed under the doona (as you always used to say).

@Bunniekinsouch my little pea, that doesn't sound good if you are sore. Yes, sometimes days curled up under our doona is so needed.

I wish you could see Dr G again. When do you get to see your new pdoc? I hope they are just as good as Dr G or even better. Lets hope this one doesn't retire too.

Maybe the SH urges are the change in your pdoc, that would set it off for me too. Have you done any more knitting? Starting to get colder, you might need those scarf's soon

@Snowie Good Idea I have on ball of wool left i will start some knitting today. I want to knit jumpers for exfactory farm chooks who have lost their feathers due to stress poor luvs and outlander gave me an idea about knitting jumpers for premmie babies so I will buy some more wool in bubby colours and try my hand at knitting chook and baby jumpers 🙂

@Bunniekinsthat sounds like such a nice idea

You will have to post photos of them when you are done

@Faith-and-Hope greenpea has the blues today so bluepea fits perfectly 🙂