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Hey @Snowie,

I'm sorry to hear it's been so tough, and that it's hard to manage without self-harm or prn's. It can hear it felt really difficult to let your GP know you're struggling. We're sitting with you. And please remember you can reach out to the crisis helplines/chat for support to think about your other coping strategies:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Samaritans: 135 247

Take care,

Tortoiseshell

I understand that need to just get through an appointment and pretend we are okay @Snowie - it is sometimes easier than letting out all that we are feeling and having everything snowball as a consequence. You do need the support right now Hon and although I understand you feeling it being easier to not ask for it - it is at this time you need it most. Life is incredibly hard for you Hon and you have limited outside support so please use those supports you have. We care so much for you Snowie and wish you had more support than you have at the moment ...the having to wait to see someone just adds to those feelings of isolation and lack of care but you also need to be honest with those you do have around you to help you get through this. You matter and deserve that care

Very much hearing you @Snowie and it simply is not good enough. You deserve so much better and it is totally unacceptablethat youareboth being left to wait and no-one has called you. But you are not a number with noname to us - youare here, you are real, you are wanted and you are loved. Lean on us as much as you need - it is not the same as outside support but care and are here for you Hon

Such wonderful news you have an appointment on Monday @Snowie I have everything crossed that she is a good fit for you - take it at your own pace Hon. It is so hard going through everything again but that needs to be done in your own time and what you are comfortable with, I really do hope this is the one for you because you so need it and deserve that support soooo much. Really, really happy for you

TMS isn't for everyone but it is something that is totally up to you too Snowie. Meds do not seem to be helping enough so looking at other options is probably a good thing - again you deserve to have that support and a better quality of life - we all want that for you. It is heartbreaking seeing you suffer so much and for so long. I get it because you know I have been there and that makes it even more heartbreaking because I know what a dark place that is and would not wish that on anyone. Whatever you decide you know you have our support ....always