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morning @Snowie , @GezzaP , @Eve7 , @outlander , @Jynx 😍

Afernoon @Shaz51 .

Hello lovely!!

How are you feeling today? 🫶

I can see there is a fire danger where you are, which must be very scary...

I can also see that you are very much needing support right now, but your appointments have fallen through, which must be really tough as well.

Have you called Warmline? The peer support service?

I am glad to hear you're journaling - what is a common theme you're noticing in your writing? @Snowie

Journalling always helps hey @Snowie - sorry to hear that things fell through though that's super frustrating.

Oh that's so scary, yeah I've been worried about how this bushfire season will go. Glad you've got a fire safety plan but fingers crossed you get to stay put and safe.

Hope you're staying cool today, however you can 💜

Hi @AuntGlow

Tired here today. Taken prn.

We have lots of smoke from fires. One has started up not far from us. Monitoring the VIC emergency app. at the moment. Had to turn off air con as you can smell the smoke inside the house. Haven't even thought of tea. Might be toast.

Things didn't seem as bad before. It wasn't my 'own' psych, but at least it was someone else from the same practice. Was only telehealth, but better than nothing. Now it just seems like people don't care. I don't matter. Not worth it.

I've never heard of warmline.

My journalling is normally what I'm feeling/thinking at the time. I couldn't write those things on here. It's normally quite dark, my deepest, darkest thoughts. Sometimes I don't even keep it. I'll rip out the page and throw it away.

Thinking of you lots 💓 @Snowie

Hello @AuntGlow , @Jynx

Hi @Jynx

Lots of smoke, house smells of it. Turned off air con. Town near us evacuated. Ready to go if needed.

Journalling is the only place where I can be truly me. Can't say it on here. Can't say it on the phone or someone I'll end up at my door.

Psych cancelling. Makes me feel like I don't matter, not important, not worth it.

Thanks @Shaz51 💗💗

@Snowie oh that's scary! Please be safe, and keep us posted - only if/when you can of course.

I get that, it's hard to keep stuff bottled up. Sometimes I use voice memos in place of a written journal - for some reason it helps me to be able to express stuff out loud, even if I know no one will ever hear it.

Those feelings of rejection are hard to sit with hey. Even if we know it's not actually personal, it's hard not to feel like it is. You matter so much hun, you're important to us here - you're part of the forums fam and there's no ifs ands or buts about it!

Thanks @Jynx

Safe for now. Lots of smoke, can't see any other houses around us. Too smokey.

Sometimes I don't even keep what I've written. Sometimes I'll rip it up and throw it out. Can feel good to do that.

I know it probably isn't personal, just hard having those thoughts. I wasn't given a reason, just that she cancelled them. Maybe if I knew why, I'd be a bit more accepting.

I just try and keep telling myself it isn't personal. Its happened to others too.