My special place

I love that movie @Eve7 never gets old

Just crawled into bed. Have eaten way too much too.

Had more dessert for tea!

Hope your day went well

It’s a great movie @Snowie I love it too. My day was good.

Good night and sleep well.

Hello and hugs 🫂 @Snowie , @Eve7

Just venting, no response needed.

Christmas is over. The worst days are behind me, or so I've been told.

Things are meant to be better. The flashbacks should have eased.

Yet the days are becoming worse. Mum arguing with me, MIL going back in, getting triggered so easily, SI thoughts just intensifying.

Yes I've tried different things. Journalling, getting outside, ice, prn, distraction. They just seem to put a band aid on which rips off so easily.

My thoughts consume me almost every moment. Sleep helps but even then, the nightmares come.

Ending it would be simple (am safe)

Sending lots of love and gentle, caring thoughts @Snowie

🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

thanks for thinking of me and your friendship

look after yourself

I did think of you this morning @Shaz51 when I listened to the news and how much rain you are getting.

I hope you are safe from all the flooding.

Sorry you are up so early hon. Lak of sleep is hard.

How are you seeing in the new year?

hugs my sister @Snowie , I am replying here because I feel I have messed up our friend`s @judi9877 special thread

yes we are safe from the flooding , we just get cut off and unable to get out of town when it goes high

seeing the new year in very quietly , cooking roast chicken legs and roast veges

how about you xx

Hugs @Eve7 😍

Thats fair enough @Shaz51 I don't want to mess up their thread either.

I'm glad you are safe from the flooding. From what I heard, there are a lot of areas affected.

Will be home tonight. Just H and I. Not sure if I will even make it to midnight.

How are you going anyway?

Had ECT this morning then spent the rest of the day at the hospital. Just got home.

MIL rushed back to hospital yesterday afternoon.

Been in emergency for almost 24hours. Got transferred to a ward about two hours ago. Made sure she was settled then came home. Tagging with her partner since only 2 allowed at a time.

She has asked for a DNR on her file. Made me upset but I can fully understand why she would want that. They are still not sure what happened.

To say I'm mentally exhausted is an understatement. Just having something to eat since I haven't since last night. I don't think I'll last long tonight.