My special place

A lot happening the last few days.

Got psych tomorrow which is good. Probably need to write things down so I tell her everything.

hi @Snowie how are you? Yes write things down. I slept a little more last night, but still got up very early. Back and neck hurting and got a terrible headache. Painkillers have made me constipated too. Went to chiro yesterday and going back tomorrow. Psychiatrist rang today and said I was right to change med dose. I’m manic from lack of sleep. In a lot of pain and discomfort. Should do back exercises again and go for another walk but really tired. Got out in the garden for a little while. Sun is out here after some rain this morning. Watered and fertilized indoor plants put them outside for a while. Wish I could poop again. I’m seeing a psychologist on 9th October. See how that goes. Smoking a lot cause I’m manic and stressed. Still aiming to try to give up again once stop smoking meds kick in. I started taking them yesterday. They take a while to work 1-2 weeks.

I'm sorry to hear that you are going through so much @GezzaP

Hopefully things start to settle for you soon and the meds start working.

Good work for getting outside into the garden.

@Snowie I went for a short early morning walk too. Leaving indoor pots out tonight as they are forecasting rain. Good to freshen them up with rainwater especially after fertilizing them. Headache and constipation a bit better now which is great. Feel much better. Looking forward to tomorrow and going back to chiropractor so he can adjust my back and neck again. Will walk if not wet. Walking is good for my back even though it hurts and I go very slowly. I like the supermarket near the chiro so I’ll pick up a few things in there too. Will make me shower

Hey @Snowie 💛

I can see a lot has been happening, here to listen if you'd like to chat.

Very happy to hear you will be seeing your psychologist.

What things do you think you'd like to address?

It sounds like things are feeling a bit lighter for you this week @GezzaP 🤩

What do you think has been helping?

@AuntGlow I’m still hypomanic and haven’t been sleeping well. As a result my back and neck are out and I’ve had awful headache. The change to the dose of one of my meds switched me from depression and sleeping a lot to not sleeping and hypomania. Did manage to book in to speak to a psychologist on 9th Oct. now I need a mental health plan so I don’t have to pay full price. The psychologist is Spanish which is cool because I’m about 70 percent fluent in Spanish.

Hi @AuntGlow

Having a few issues with mum. Her dementia has progressed quite a bit. It's me having to do it all, my brother is useless.

The last few days haven't gone well. Just trying to work through it. My psych and I worked on visualisation last session. I've been trying it but struggling. I feel like I've failed.

I'm just hoping my psych can help in any way. Or maybe just listen while I unload.

Oh, wow @Snowie.

This would be really hard... so much pressure on you.

What do you need most right now to make it through this period of being there for mum?

And you absolutely haven't failed - visualisation tasks are so hard. I find them very difficult. What one has she shared?

I am sure they will be able to provide that space for you to just share and regulate.

I will check-in tomorrow to see how it went? 💛

@AuntGlow

I don't know what I need. I've never had to face this before. I don't know what's next. Today she couldn't write her name. Whats next?

We tried to do the box one. Place the memory in the box. Close the lid, wrap it up with duct tape. Place it in the room, lock the door.

I just can't do any of it.