My special place

Sometimes it looks that way @NatureLover

We clean up but doesn't look like we've done anything. My study is very much like that.

Stressing about both.

Do you think that being distracted from your thoughts tomorrow will be easier than today? Or will pretending you're all right tomorrow be too exhausting and distressing?

@Snowie

In the past Xmas day has been hard @NatureLover. You are right, it is so exhausting and distressing just to get through the day. To put that smile on your face and pretend. You can be surrounded by people yet still feel so alone inside.

Today my brain switches between not wanting to be here and not wanting to hurt my kids and hubby?

Do you do anything for New Years Eve?

Yes, I understand how hard and awful it is pretending, @Snowie 😥

That's one reason I don't do Christmas any more.

So is today about trying to distract yourself from your thoughts and block them out as much as possible?

I don't do much these days for New Year's Eve although I do like it. Much better than Christmas for me.

What about you?

I totally get what you’re saying @Snowie

that’s what I told my dr today - pretending to be happy tomorrow when really deep down inside I’m hurting.

I really hope tomorrow won’t be too hard for you xxxx

hi @NatureLover

If I had my choice I wouldn't do Xmas either @NatureLover I guess I do it for my kids. Have done it since they were born and continue it now. I guess when they get older they can choose whether to continue or not.

I don't think we are doing anything for NYE. Son is working till late that night so have to be around to pick him up anyway. I'm not really a party type anyway. That would be more pretending!!

Today is just about not doing what I want to do. Just taking it hour by hour. I've made it so far so I guess thats good.

@BlueBay it certainly is not a Merry day. I hope you are able to get through it too.

Yes, having kids makes a difference to doing Christmas @Snowie . I attended all the family Christmases till my half-siblings were adults. I stopped about 6 years ago.

So I guess you will have to be awake till midnight / late on NYE anyway.

Well done so far today for not doing what you want to do. 🫂 Hour by hour means things are very bad. I'm sorry to hear 😥

Hi @BlueBay

I guess I do it for my mum too @NatureLover She is very much into Xmas. Growing up it was always such a big deal in our family. Lots of traditions. Lots of people.

I guess we all go through these times. If I don't have to think too far ahead, it doesn't seem as overwhelming.

hey there @Snowie @NatureLover @BlueBay i'm hearing how difficult xmas eve is, sending you all some extra love tonight 💜

(p.s. don't forget: you can always pop in here to drop those fake smiles whenever you need a break)

Thanks @rav3n today sucked.

I hope your night goes ok.

I'm assuming you are taking time off between xmas day and new years day