My special place

I can't distract myself @creative_writer I can't contribute to it.

It's on happiness. All I feel is despair

It's all too intense tonight

I can't stay

Please take care @Snowie . I'm here for a bit longer if you need company.

@Snowie That rotten SW!! Can you sack him?! Tell him not to pretend to be a SW to you any more?

I'm so sorry it caused your thoughts and SH to deteriorate 😢

Were you able to sleep last night? I hope you are safe 🤞

Sending care 💙

@NatureLover I wish my pdoc was around so I could message him.

I didn't sleep well.

I made a really bad decision last night. It's not helping me today.

Sorry I'm so negative.

I really hope today is going well for you.

So my SW just called me. He said he was sick yesterday. Sounded fine on the phone today. So sick he couldn't at least send me a message? Stupid me says "that's ok, no problem"

H angry with me after what I did, me angry with myself for not standing up for myself. Just turning into a day like yesterday.

A good organisation would have called you @Snowie to let you know that he wasn’t in today. I get a call from another SW if mine is away. It’s not good enough for you

I know I shouldn't but it makes me think there is something wrong with me @Bow.

That I'm not worth it, that he doesn't care enough. And even though these visits were temporary, I still allow it to get to me. To the point where my sh and si get out of control.

@Snowie Was that the last supposed session with the SW? I hope so, that you won't be bothered with him any more. He's done more damage than good. In fact, I don't think he's done any good, has he? I hope you get a chance to give feedback to the organisation at the end.

When does your pdoc come back?

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@Snowie wrote:

I made a really bad decision last night. It's not helping me today.

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I think we do whatever we can to survive and get through the day when the pain is so bad, dear @Snowie . I hope you won't beat yourself up.

I hope you slept better last night and that today is a better day for you 🤞

Sending lots of care 💙

@NatureLover I am meant to have another 7 sessions with him. I don't think I will bother.

He has done more damage, I don't think I can deal with it anymore.

My pdoc is back in 2 weeks time. I have an appt. with my psych on Tuesday.

I spoke to LL yesterday. Ended up with someone at my door 😔Lucky both kids were out.

Nothing has changed today.

I really hope you are going ok hon.