My special place

Yep, I agree, no reason to apologise @Snowie. You came here because its safe and you can be vulnerable. As @outlander said well done on calling 2 services. Very proud of you because I understand that's really hard for you to do. No need to feel shame or guilty about that either. You needed help and that's why those services exist.

In one way, I'm glad your pdoc advocated for you not to return to work. I can't even see you, and I know you are far from ready. But I understand too that not returning to work is a big blow. My GP and I are just starting to discuss work options for the future, but she won't let me work in medical fields for many reasons. Some of those reasons I can't discuss here, but essentially it's too stressful, and if get criticism from a supervisor or someone else, I may not handle it very well. Even when I was working last year at this time, I was having trouble concentrating and struggled to remember some tasks. How I held my depression and anxiety in for so long I don't know.

And then in the last few days there's lots of posts from other nurses and doctors I've worked with about International Nurses Day. I see the people who bullied me get promoted and work on the 6star ships. That was supposed to be me. Almost every bully that targeted me has been promoted, while management sided with them and I've quit very good positions. It's so not right. I missed so many opportunities in my career. I wish I turn time back at times like this.

I'm going to get busy distracting myself soon, because I already have a headache and the tears aren't far away. Everyone tells me that there are opportunities to come for me, but they don't understand the loss of my nursing. Rarely does anyone discuss it with me in any depth.

@Snowie if I triggered you, I'm real sorry.

@outlander I've got a meeting in an hour for my volunteer group. I think I might have upset Snowie, so I'm getting off this thread and I'll logging out.

@Sans911 ..... I think @Snowie was heading off to sporting commitments with her kids Hon ...... she said she will be back later ..... ?

@Sans911 you did not trigger me at all sweetheart. I want to respond to your post just cannot now as headed out to kids sports. Will be back on here later tonight hun. 💗💞💜💟

It's my dumb brain overthing and over reacting today. Ignore me @Snowie.

@Sans911 it is not your brain or you hun. Today is a hard day for you so probably a bit more sensitive atm. Hugs hun, you never trigger me 💗💞💜💜

No @Shaz51 not alright. A hard day. I want this weekend to end. I want to sleep right through until Monday