My special place

They probably will be then @creative_writer

It is such a good course to do, I hope you are able to work at the end of it or at least it can help in your progress.

I try and at least have a shower most days, I figure that's good enough. Sometimes when I'm really depressed even a shower is hard enough.

It must be hard having hair that requires that much care. I'm lucky that mine just get oily when not washed.

Hopefully the course does help @creative_writer It is always easier working in a field that we like. To have that love for a job is so needed.

Sorry to hear you feel angry and uneasy. Around if you need to talk.

It is not being ungrateful @creative_writer People can still care about us, yet at the same time cannot deal with us talking to them about our mental health. It is like they are taboo words.

There are people in my life that would not cope if I talked about my MI. There are family/friends who don't know how to deal with me and don't know what to say to me. I'm not sure if they are to blame or not, maybe they were brought up not talking about their emotions.

Unfortunately we cannot change what has happened in the past. I often wonder if I dealt with my PTSD earlier then I wouldn't be as bad as I am now.

What we can do now is reach out to the support we have now and be thankful that we have support around us.

If it is coming out then let it all out. I guess the old saying 'better out then in' does apply.

I understand to an extent @creative_writer My mum has told me on numerous occasions that psych's are only in it for the money, that I have gotten worse since I saw someone, that meds only make me worse, and plenty of other things about my MI. I have had to learn to ignore her. Those are her beliefs and not something that I have to believe in.

Being on guard all the time must be exhausting hon. It would take up so much energy.

I guess all you can do is look after yourself hon. You are worth the fight and worth the energy.

It is scary letting people in @creative_writer It has taken me a long time to become comfortable with my psych and pdoc, to the point where I can tell them what is happening for me. Yes, I still hold back at times. I think that is normal. We all can be hesitant at times.

I totally get the scary thoughts around physical contact, especially with our history and ptsd.

I have been with my husband for over 20 years and it can still affect me at times. I think the main thing is to let them know what you are thinking and to be as honest with them as possible.

But you are right, it can be a really triggering topic.

Have you got any plans for tomorow?