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Brought D a car yesterday afternoon. Hopefully if payment goes through we can pick it up Friday. Couldn't wipe the smile of her face!

Had a rough night last night. Pdoc has already talked about changing my night meds so maybe that is what is needed. My psych appt. keeps replaying in my head. It was a full on session. Not sure if I am ready for that. Also not sure if I should have told her what I did. That moment in time now keeps replaying over and over in my head. I don't think my young self is ready for all of this. I am scared of what is coming. Having to remember the past is something I have tried so hard to forget about.

My psych wants to do EMDR with me. I am open to the idea. I would rather do it with her then doing it as an inpatient. Easier on me and my family.

Anyway, thanks for reading my ramblings. I hope you all have a good day.

I hear it’s hard @Snowie. Maybe you needed to let it out to move forward. Maybe it’s a sign that while things will be hard at least you can work through it.

Sorry have been absent for 7 days - had a death in the family 😭

How was your trip to the snow last weekend @Snowie ?

I hope you can do EMDR with your psych, if that's what you'd like 🤞

oh no @NatureLover I'm sorry to hear that news. I hope you are ok and taking care of yourself.

Our trip to the snow went well. Always seems to settle me a bit which is nice. Just needs to last now.

Thanks so much, @Snowie .

I wish you could go to the snow every weekend, all year round.

I hope your psych can offer and you’re able to do EMDR therapy together. That certainly would be better than having to go inpatient.
I think it’s pretty normal to be feeling the way that you are about your recent psych appointment. Disclosing painful truths are hard, especially for the first time. Although you are struggling now, and that it’s replaying over and over I think it’s a good things hon. It’s a step forward. I’m sure that you are already, but doing some journaling would be helpful.

Excited for you all for Friday too!

I have been journaling @Bow It is one of the things that does help get it out of my head.

S**t hit the fan very quickly last night. Regretting what I did last night and paying for it today.

You put a few good days/weeks together and things can unwind in the blink of an eye.

I am so angry with myself and the world.

Hi @Snowie

Sorry to hear that. Yes things can unravel quickly 😢

Hugs

Hanami

Hi @NatureLover

Sorry to hear about the death in your family. Hope you are ok.

Hugs

Hanami