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I spoke to someone from LL. I'm hoping they don't send anyone out @Captain24

It’s so hard to be honest with that fear of repercussions @Snowie. But I am glad

that you did reach out. I know how hard that is. Sending hugs

Hugs to @Captain24 @Snowie @Bow .

We are sitting with you all.

@tyme I don't think being on here is the right thing at the moment. I don't want to over step the line.

Take care everyone.

@Snowie ,

Do what's right for you for now. I hear it is hard.

Sometimes, if interacting with others helps, you may want to stay on.

However, if you feel it is not so helpful, then perhaps a bit of offline time helps.

The last thing we want is for you to be idle at home and end up worse off.

We've all had our not-so-pleasant times, and it's okay to sit with it.

I know you find journalling helpful. You may want to use your thread here to journal to reflect on where you are right now. If you don't want to tag anyone, that's okay. This is your space.

Oh I know how difficult that 2 week wait is @Snowie im so sorry! I know you like to journal and find it helpful, have you been able to do some of that?

and have you heard back from the guided service yet?

this link is a questionnaire that my gp does with me every time I renew my ED support plan. The butterfly foundation also linked me to it when I first started showing signs. Might be helpful to take a look and even print off the results and take it along to an appointment? Either your gp or psychologist or even pdoc? And I was like you…. Food was what I could control in my world when everything else was out of control. That’s how it all started…

https://insideoutinstitute.org.au/assessment/?started

I feel so lost at the moment and so utterly down at the moment. Things are not great and I am scared of what I can and am doing to myself. I know seeing my psych every second week is more often then others have and I should be feeling lucky. But for me, it's not enough. And then when I do see her, I get through 1/4 of what I need to talk about. 50 mins every two weeks is simply not enough.

I have tried reaching out to different people and/or groups, but it just like I am walking into a brick wall.

I am meant to talk to my pdoc tomorrow and I am scared he will be upset about my stopping my ECT. Also scared that if I tell him the truth he will have me admitted. I really don't want that.

I tried to journal but it didn't help tonight. The only time I get relief is when I sleep, which isn't much lately.

I don't know where to go from here. In one way I want to get better, but in another I just want to curl up in a ball and disappear forever.

If you have read all this then thanks, I need to vent.

Take care everyone xoxo

I'm listening and I'm hearing, and I'm here @Snowie .

Sitting with you.

@Bow I too was concerned that it was not approved to mention what I mentioned, but I'm glad I did. Thank you for the questionnaire - I filled it in myself - it seemed very comprehensive, and at the end it offered to find the nearest health professional to me. I'm impressed and have saved the webpage to my bookmarks. (I don't have an ED but I was surprised to find I have some issues around my shape.)

@Snowie I can really empathise about the issue of this being the only thing you can control. I understand what a desperate need we have to control things. Sending you hugs...

Thinking of you @Snowie. I hope you were able to get some sleep last night.
I hope your Pdoc app goes ok today.