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Spoke to a psych on the phone this morning about doing EMDR. Supposedly the pdoc in the hospital thought it might be a good idea, but failed to tell me that. The phone call lasted for about 50 mins and he asked all kinds of questions including about my sh and si thoughts, which of course I didn't tell him everything. I was scared of what he would do. Asked me what sort of trauma I had been dealing with. It was a lot of triggering questions. Something that might have been better to do in person then with a complete stranger on the phone. The only way I knew he was from the hospital was the caller id. I really wish I hadn't even answered the call.

I am not sure about doing the therapy. It would mean another 4 weeks in hospital which I really don't want to do. I don't even know if my normal pdoc is on board with this and if it would be a forced admission. He said I wouldn't be able to get into the program until at least Aug/Sept so why am I even bothering to get worked up about it now.

If you have read this far than thanks. I really think I need a break from everything. I need time out from myself. I don't know how to do that or what it looks like, but I cannot keep going like this. I'm safe for now and will reach out for help if I need it but that's all I know.

Please take care of yourself.

Take care of you @Snowie

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Look after yourself @Snowie sending hugs

Gosh, what a dilemma about the EMDR, @Snowie . I'm sorry that the phone call was triggering 😞

When do you next see your normal pdoc, to run it past him/her?

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@Snowie wrote:

I really think I need a break from everything. I need time out from myself. I don't know how to do that or what it looks like, but I cannot keep going like this.

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I don't know the answer, all I do is knock myself out with books.

Sending hugs and wishes that you'll know what to do about the EMDR 💙

Sending you hugs @Snowie. I hope you are ok. I’m thinking of you

Oh @Snowie just thinking of you and realising that I haven’t seen you about recently. I hope that you are ok, perhaps away for the holidays and I missed your post? Love and hugs to you 💕💕

Thanks @Bow for thinking of me. Just needed some time away.

@Eve7 How are you going hon?

@Captain24 @NatureLover thanks for the thoughts.

It’s good to see you here @Snowie and I hope Easter has been ok for you and your family. I see it’s been really cold in Vic while we’ve had sunshine and crowded beaches.

I’m doing ok and trying hard to stay distracted.

How are you? 💜💜

It has been really cold here @Eve7 especially today. Feels like winter certainly has arrived.

Easter was ok. Kids still got chocolate from the easter bunny even though they are too old to believe anymore.

I hope you have been able to distract yourself hon. Am here if you need to chat.

Have my pdoc in the morning tomorrow so need to speak to him about a few things. My sh has increased the last few days, just trying to keep it together.

Sorry about your sh @Snowie I struggle with it too almost every waking moment.

I hope your pdoc appointment goes well in the morning. I’ll be thinking about you.

Just about to go to bed. 💜