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I spent quite a bit of time in there when S was young. He is fine now, but it was such a daunting place. I was one of the lucky ones and was able to bring him home, yet others are not so lucky.

Better go and get ready for the drive. We live rural so quite a bit of a drive into the city.

Take care all 💜💜

Well I got through the visit, not without the tears however. Too many bad memories of the place.

D did wonderful and got through her tests like a pro. I was so proud of her. Now we just have to wait for the results, which is another trip back into the hospital to see the specialist. I guess it is just a waiting game now. Hopefully if something is really bad, then they will ring earlier. So I guess no news is good news.

At least we are home now and can curl up on the couch for the night. Looking forward to watching the footy or maybe even put a movie on.

The thoughts are still there but maybe not as strong as last night. Will take that as a win. Hoping they stay that way.

A tough day to get through, but you got through it @Snowie, proud of ya. Hope you can have a gentle, relaxing evening - and of course let us know if those thoughts get loud for you 💜

Thanks @Jynx It was a rough day but it makes me appreciate what I have with my children.

I hope you have a good night too.

Glad you got a great sleep the other night 🙂 Well done for getting through a tough day yesterday @Snowie

Thanks for the support yesterday @NatureLover @Jynx

Last night didn't end up good. The thoughts just got louder and stronger and ended up SH. In the end I spoke to someone which helped a little.

Got to sleep quickly (thanks to meds) but been awake since about 4am.

Think it might be a couch day watching the football.

Hugs and cuppas for you today @Snowie

I find it easy to slip into our behaviour patterns after being in hospital hon and it’s hard to maintain the “about turn” when we come home and are on our own.

Well done for speaking to someone.

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@Eve7

I knew if I didn't speak to someone then I would have kept going. I knew that the hospital visit wouldn't just 'cure' me, but I didn't think I would fall this quickly.

I'm sorry about your sunburn hon. I hope you have some soothing cream for your skin and it doesn't hurt too much. I get how something 'normal' can turn into something bad for us.

To be honest too, I think I have turned not eating into sh. I barely eat at all and when I do, I normally throw it up. In hospital I only went to the cafeteria three times in 5 weeks. I just had cheese and biscuits most of the time. I'm still not really eating at home.

I'm sorry to dump this on you when you have your own problems. I'll stop now.

Hi @Snowie

Thank you for reaching out here on the Forums!

I can understand how you feel coming out of the hospital and falling back into old ways. Focusing on what you learned or what treatment you received and thinking about the positive outcomes you gained in the hospital would be good to take you back to feeling better again.

I'm a little concerned about how you described eating at the moment and that you are viewing it as SH. Did you speak to someone in the hospital or can you reach out to your community supports to discuss how you are feeling? How are you coping with it at the moment?

Warmest

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