My special place

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@Snowie wrote:

Well sitting here tonight at HOME 😁😁

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Yay!! Well done for the past 5 difficult weeks @Snowie 💙

Well today has been a bit of a hard/mixed day.

I am thankful for how far I have come, I am thankful for being here today. I very much know that I wouldn't be here today if my MH team hadn't stepped in all those weeks ago.

I know how much ECT has helped me, but I am concerned with how much my memory has been affected by it. The last 5 weeks really do seem to be a bit of a blur. Reading back through my journal, it seems like I am reading the thoughts of a completely different person.

My memory seems to have taken such a dramatic effect on me as a person. With continuing with ECT I am worried how much my memory will continue to deteriorate.

I am thankful for having this space to be able to express my thoughts and having the support from so many forum members.

You have come a long way @Snowie and you do have your life to live again. As for your memory, it’s always been my experience that it does come good again. ECT has saved my life.

I’m passing my Uni subjects now so I take that as a good indicator. Keeping a journal is a good habit as at least your memories are being recorded.

I like to think that this is a recovery period and it will take time. I have bad days and I am taking anti psychotics again but I’m alive and trying to stay here.

Do I make sense?

Lots of love

💕💕💕

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@Eve7 wrote:

ECT has saved my life.

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Wow, such a powerful and positive statement @Eve7 !

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@Eve7 wrote:

As for your memory, it’s always been my experience that it does come good again.

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I'm glad to hear 🙂

@Snowie I hope your memory does come good again, like @Eve7 said. Hoping that your days get easier and the new meds help 💙

Thanks for the encouragement @NatureLover I hope things get a little better with time.

@Eve7 I will say that ECT has saved my life too. I knew about the memory loss before I started, so wasn't surprised by it, I guess just a little upset that it affected me so much.

Well done for passing all your uni subjects hon. You should take that as a huge accomplishment. It certainly is something to be proud off.

I am hoping the change in meds does help too. My regular pdoc was impressed with the changes they made. They were quite bit changes in regard to my anti-psychotic and anti-depressant drugs, so will see how they go. So far, no side effects there thankfully.

I thank both of you for your encouragement, wise words and your own experiences. Even though I would not want anyone to go through this, it is much easier having others that can relate to you so closely.

I wish you both a great day today 💜💜

@Snowie 🌷🌻♥

@Eve7 @NatureLover 👋💞

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@Snowie wrote:

So far, no side effects there thankfully.

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Am so pleased to hear this, @Snowie 🙂

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@Snowie wrote:

I will say that ECT has saved my life too.

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And this too!

Hope today is a good one for you @Snowie 💙

School drop off done 👍

Supermarket done 👍

PRN 👍

Small tasks feel so huge at the moment.

Does it take some time to adjust to being home with all your responsibilities after 5 weeks in hospital, @Snowie ?

Hoping things become a bit easier... 💙