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Hi,everyone. Just a quick checking. Have settled into hospital ok and just finding my way around slowly.

Was going to try and get to some groups tomorrow, just see how I go, not too good around crowds yet.

Have meeting with pdoc and hubby tomorrow afternoon, anxious about that one and what things are said in the meeting.

I hope u are all going ok. Not very capable of checking in with other but that's for the tags, it is nice to,know I am still thought off.

Snowie

Thanks for the update @Snowie I’ve been wondering about you today.

I hope tomorrow’s meeting goes ok and that you are happy with your treatment plan.

Sending hugs, flowers, love and chocolate xo

Thanks @Eve7

Meet with pdoc, doctor, hubby and myself this afternoon. It actually went ok. The pdoc was the most thorough any doctor has ever been.

Starting to change meds tonight. They are slowly weaning me off the old ones whilst starting me on the new ones. Hopefully that means I won't have a downward spiral, but I know I am in the best place if that happens.

Starting ECT on Friday too, having it 3 times a week. This means I will probably be in her for closer to 4 weeks. Not sure how I feel about that.

Have had lots of SI and SH thoughts and plans today. Spoke to a lovely nurse who helped me make sense of my twisted mind. Still high but have no access to anything which is probably a good thing.

I hope you are going ok hon and things are well. Love you all lots 💕💕

@Snowie ,

Thank you for the update! Has today alleviate your anxieties - even a little?

Thanks for keeping us informed @Snowie and it sounds like your meeting was positive. I’m so glad you’re in a safe place and also that you’ll be having ECT more often. Hopefully that will also help prevent too much of a spiral during the med change.

Im glad you had a lovely nurse to talk to today who helped with those thoughts. Ticking some boxes hon 💜

I tried to cancel my pdoc appointment for tomorrow as I’m just not feeling up to it and my pdoc rang me to check I was ok. I don’t think I’ve ever had that happen before so I’ve agreed to a phone call tomorrow. I have a cold (normal variety) so I won’t be going in to see her.

We went out for Mexican in Surfers tonight for S2’s birthday and have only just returned home. I love being so near the beach at night but I ate far too much lol.

Anyway, goodnight sweet friend. One step at a time. 💜💜💜

Hi @Eve7 @tyme @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Faith-and-Hope @outlander @Shaz51@BlueBay @Bow and anyone else around.

My memory isn't that great at the moment. Meds are being lowered and ECT 3 times per week. My mood has dramatically goon downhill, I think it might have something to do with the meds changes. I know I didn't want to come in her but at least I have safe, even though my SI thoughts are starting to increase quite quickly.

I hope you all have a good weekend coming and can do something enjoyable for yourself.

Love Snowie 💗💗

hugs and hugs my @Snowie 😍

Sending lots of love, hugs and kind support @Snowie

I really hope you only have nice nurses over the weekend as the extra support needs to be available.

Lots of love my friend

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Thanks everyone.

Had a day off today which was nice. My sh and si thoughts are intense today so the nurses have me on extra watches. My meds are still being lowered and not on the new ones yet so I guess it happens. Will finally say my pdoc was right about doing all this in hospital. Not sure if I like that or not. Don't want to say too much to them or else they won't let me out on leave. Managed to go out today, get some sunshine and a proper coffee.

H and the kids are coming in tomorrow and we will go out for lunch. They are not allowed in the hospital (b/c of covid still) but at least I can go out with them on escorted leave.

Almost made it through the day without dissociating but no such luck. I did have a nice student nurse sit with me to help me come out of it.

It does really make a difference when you have someone caring about you.

I hope everyone had a good day today and tomorrow brings you some joy.

Not tagging anyone because I don't want to leave anyone out.

@Snowie best wishes 😸