My special place

Had ECT this morning. It went ok but some of the questions the nurse asked was hard to answer. I think I put my guard up and once again didn't let anyone in.

Got an email from daughters school inviting me to an assembly and morning tea to celebrate her leadership position this year. Will most likely be in hospital when the assembly is. So now I feel like I have to decide between my daughter and my mental health. My mental illness affects the people I love the most. It just isn't fair.

Have got myself into such a state this afternoon. Going to try and ring someone. My life feels just like one disappointment after another.

I don’t know what to say @Snowie.Sorry.
But I’m here for you and sending you good thoughts.

The tears won't stop

Given up on being on hold

I hate me

Hey @Snowie ,

It does sound like a tough choice. However, would you consider sitting down with your daughter and having a chat to her about it? Seeing she has a leadership position, do you think she has the maturity to understand your current situation regarding ECT or morning tea?

Her answer may surprise you. Children's intuition can be very different to what we think.

Alternatively, can it be recorded? According to the Disability Discrimination Act and the Disability Standards for Education 2005, reasonable adjustments need to be made students whose parents need extra support so that they do not feel excluded.

Thoughts?

@tyme

I am sure she will understand as she is mature. But I have failed as a mother. I should be there for her. It's not the ECT that is the problem, I can just miss a week of that. It is the fact that I am getting admitted to hospital soon and I miss out on her achievements.

I'm not sure if it can be recorded. I guess that is something I can ask.

I hate me, I hate my MI, I just want to give up

I'm sorry. I have no support for others. On hold again.

I’m sorry @Snowie but I do know you need this admission urgently.

You have NOT failed as a mother…good kids don’t just “happen”, you and h are doing a wonderful job bringing up your children and the fact that she is in leadership is testament to that.

Maybe you can organise a family celebration and all go out to dinner when you’re out of hospital.

Hugs, hugs and more hugs

🤗🫂🤗🫂🤗🫂🤗

Are you okay @Snowie ?

I'm not ok @tyme

I can't stop Crying, my emotions are all,over the place.

I have tried to reach out for help but,things haven't ended well.

I think I need a break, I am doing no good being a CG at the moment. How can,I,help others when I cannot help myself.

My failure as a parent damages so much of me.

Please take care of each other.

Hi Snowie, Wenna here I have sent you an email but more importantly look after yourself