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It has been really windy here too @Zoe7 All we seem to get is rain. I hope our summer is not like this.

Have just cooked tea, done the dishes and will probably head to bed soon.

I hope tomorrow goes ok for you hon and Tobes lets you get some sleep tonight.

@Eve7 hoping tomorrow is a good day for you too hon 💗

I would have definitely missed you tonight @Snowie and hope you are well and truly asleep by now. The wind has gotten even worse here - even Clover does not want to be outside in it. I don't think I will be sleeping much tonight unless it dies down. Tobes is looking uncomfortable again so will be snuggling with him until he falls asleep again. I hope tomorrow is a little easier for you Hon 💙 ...you too @Eve7 💜

You’re doing so well @Snowie especially with what you have to face in the coming weeks. Please be kind to yourself.

Lots of love 💜💜💜

Sleep well @Zoe7 and will catch up with you tomorrow. 💙💙💙

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@Snowie wrote:

Saw my psych this morning. Was a tough session. She asked again if I needed to go to hospital and again I said no. Don't want to sit in a waiting room for hours just for them to judge me and send me home.

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I am scared how I will cope. It will mean a good 5 weeks between appointments. At the moment I find two weeks between appointments hard.

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I'm sorry to hear, @Snowie 😞

We are here for you...but I know it's hard. 💔

@Snowie @Eve7 Good morning beautiful people 💙💜

Hi @Snowie , I’ve thought about what you wrote yesterday and even though you decided to break ties with a family member. It’s not because of something you did wrong. That person did the inconceivable and they are the reason you can’t play happy families at Christmas. I. Know it’s hard but this is not your fault hon. You are a brave, honest soul and what they did was evil.

Lots of love ❤️💜💙

ok, so going to ramble a bit, so if your do read this then thank you for listening!

I hate the health system. Sat in emergency with my daughter for about 6 hours last night and into this morning. Earlier that day I had taken her to the doctors and he referred her to a pain specialist and taking stronger meds. Rang up pain clinic, said at least a 2 week wait for a phone call back just to be placed on a waiting list, and then at least a 3 month wait. Told the gp that as a child I just can't keep giving her panadeine forte/endone (I hope it is ok to say that on here) every day. Well ended up in emergency as her pain got worse. Got very assertive. Said I should not have to give my D pain relief every day just to cope with her pain. Wouldn't it be better to find the underlying cause instead of just giving pain relief. There has to be something happening with her.

Now on an urgent list for follow up appointments. Am meant to get a phone call in the next 2 days but am not holding my breath. I don't know what else to do. She is not making this up, she is not the type to. We both just want some answers and not just a bandaid to cover up the problem. There has to be an underlying issue.

Was hard sitting in the ED. Bad memories and very much a trigger. I know I need to look after myself but I need to put her first. This is not what I needed. Relying too much on prn to get through.

Oh well, rant over. Just had to get it off my chest. Thank you if you made it this far!

It is just ridiculous that anyone, let a lone a child, has to have continuous pain relief without finding out the cause @Snowie Good on you for being so assertive - that is your D and you would do anything for her. I know it is not the easiest place for you to be but as usual you have put others in front of yourself and dealt with it the best you can (which is pretty amazing). I do hope they call quickly and your D can be seen soon. Hugs and hugs and hugs to both you and your D 💙💙💙

Thanks @Zoe7

Today has been a little better for D. Managed to get pain under control.

Things are catching up with me at the moment. Think it might be an early night to bed, just really tired.

I am not surprised you are tired @Snowie You have been carrying so much on your shoulders as well as having your D in pain - that is a lot to deal with on it's own but throw in all the mental and physical energy ....that all takes its toll. I hope you are asleep now and D continues to have the pain under control. Love to you both 💙💙💙