My special place

still here for you too @Snowie

@Snowie I wish there was something I could do to help you tonight but I know when you feel this way it is simply a matter of getting through the night - GN1 is all you need to aim for Hon

I'm sorry @Zoe7 @outlander I don't want to be this needy. Everything is going wrong. I simply don't care about GN1 anymore....

We care about GN1 @Snowie because we care about you - take it minute by minute and lean on us as much as you need - we all need that support sometimes and we are here with you Hon

Hello my lovely sister @Snowie

Well, we are here now for you hun @Zoe7 @outlander @Faith-and-Hope

But maybe that is not enough. It seems like you are in a really dark place, and may not be safe? Have you managed to keep safe? Or are you struggling with that?

I haven't heard you quite this this before, and it is concerning me. Can hubby call an ambulance or take you to hospital? I really do believe you need urgent help hun. Please do it for yourself

@Sans911no, havent managed that, havent let H know how bad it is tonight.

Kids at home, kids can't see, too hard basket

@SnowieI hear what you are saying, and I realise how important that is to you, however, do you not think sometimes you must put your own needs first? You only have to say to them that you have a sore head, and need a special doctor to take a look at it.

Nothing is a too hard basket sweetie. Nothing. Not you; never.

When you say you haven't managed that, does that mean you haven't managed to remain safe?

Do you strongly feel like taking your life tonight? Is there a reason you don't want your husband to know?

@Snowie

No I havent @Sans911 I'm sorry, I don't want to upset you. H struggling to cope with me, don't want to make it worse. I can't answer that on here, too many ppl can read it.

Thankyou all for sitting with me. Not being fair on others. I am just a pawn in my life where my mind can play cruel games on me. I detest me,