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@Snowie It sounds like a lovely day for you Hon - so pleased to read 💙💙💙

Hi all

D is still in pain and having to take pain relief every day to get through. Have a doctors appointment this afternoon to see where we can go from here. Hoping to get a few more answers.

Get the keys to our investment property this afternoon. Will start with ripping the kitchen and bathrooms out tomorrow. Actually looking forward to using the sledge hammer tomorrow. Might be good therapy!!

Also have psych tomorrow. Missed last session so got lots to talk to her about.

Take care everyone 💗

That sounds like great therapy @Snowie

I hope you got some answers for d today. Take care tomorrow hon, you have a big day coming up.

Hi all @Eve7 @outlander @Zoe7 @NatureLover and anyone else around.

Got the keys to our new investment house yesterday. Spent all of today cleaning up and breaking things. Good therapy with a sledge hammer!!! Took my kids through the house this afternoon. They couldn't believe someone would live like that. Think they might be thankful for the house they live in.

Yesterday was a big day. Had psych in the morning which went ok. Mainly spoke about what has been happening lately and some strategies I can use. I know these but in the moment I sometimes forget and use SH as a copping tool.

Then I had a funeral. Was a beautiful send off for someone so young who should have had his whole life in front of him. Was spent after that and came home to bed.

Have a hair dressers appointment tomorrow so that will be nice. Cover up the greys!!!

Finally have some good news for D. Managed to get an appointment for a procedure next Tuesday so hopefully find out what is happening. She is still in quite a bit of pain. Have had to go private and there is quite an out of pocket fee but that is better than waiting months and months in the public system.

That is all from me. I hope you have all had a good day.

@Snowie 😄♥🌻🌺

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Exciting about the investment property but also a really sad day with the funeral on the same day @Snowie Throw psych in there too and it must have felt like such a rollercoaster of a day for you Hon. Hugs and hugs and hugs 💙💙💙

Not going to tag anyone, just really need to get a few things out.

The last few days have been hard. Have had trouble sleeping at night even with my meds. Last night I saw each hour until about 5am when I finally feel asleep. I have so much racing through my mind at the moment. My days either seem to be taken up with trying to catch up on sleep or using different things to try and distract myself.

I have SH the last few days with not even remembering that I did it yesterday. I think I have been dissociating quite a lot to save myself from my thoughts. Unfortunately, my psych is away at the moment which makes things a little harder.

I do have my pdoc tomorrow (via phone) so will try and talk to him about what has been happening. Just need to try and get through tonight and tomorrow morning as best as I can.

I just want it all to stop at the moment. I want a break from myself and the voices in my head.