Dear @Former-Member,
I know how hard things get, and i know things often feel so much worse the second time around, Mentally i am more fragile now than i have ever been, i know the feeling of utter despair, i have been their often and will be their in the future, we all struggle here, we all reach out for help when we need it most.
I know it must feel very lonely and uncertain, please go see your doctor, or maybe your psychiatrist/psychologist, this will have no baring on your family court case, it falls under client/patient privilege, which can only be shared with the court under the most strict circumstances.
I know the pain of being alone, not having a soul mate to confide in or share time with, i have never had anyone special in my life, i have always been alone, @Former-Member it upsets me so that you feel you don't deserve anyone or to be happy, everyone deserves these things, even you, i know things are tough, i know how hard things get especially when you can't get enough sleep, i am in the same boat at the moment, this only magnifies our problems, and magnifies our MH suffering.
@Former-Member, please try to do 1 small thing every day to be kind to yourself, a cup of coffee, some nice perfume, when things feel like they are closing in, go for a little walk around the block with the kids, just getting out of the house for a few minutes can make a big difference.
I know how the pressure of the court stuff and your new job is getting to you, just keep reminding yourself it is almost over.
@Former-Member please call lifeline or suicide callback service if things become too overwhelming, you are doing a wonderful job caring for you and the two little ones under the circumstances.
You have so many friends here who care about you, thinking of you often
Jacques
