Hello @rimemariner29 I dont think we have "met" on the forums.
Lack of feelings could be meds and/or your specific MI related.... the "old blunted affect" chestnut.
I have the opposite problem too much emotion ... and responsiveness ... but I am struck about "feelings" being often related to romantic or sexual attractions ...
A lady introduced me to someone and nodded understanding saying that the world didnt move under my feet ... I am used to the rug being repeatedly torn from underneat me ... dont know much about earth-moving .. unless I start thinking geology ...
Apparently due to my history I dont get what everybody else seems to "get" about gender and relationship issues .. or maybe everyone has watched too much Hollywood. .. and my responses are ok ... I dont know.
Even the Dalai Lama gets compassion ... as non-gendered ...
My belief or hope is that feelings build up with positive experiences ... reinforcing desire to keep contact ... eventually leading to a loving relationship ....
I think you posted that you were working and had a diagniosis of schizophrenia. I hope that is going reasonably well.