Just sad.

Hi @Queenie. Adding to those who are hearing you. I'm sorry to hear things are hard at the moment.

We have the same study/career dream by the sounds of it. A month ago I was determined to get back into it, ready to enrol myself and hit the ground running, and dreaming of finally graduating. A few days ago my GP wrote a letter about me being "unwell" and not able to study for at least another six months. Not sure about that yet, but I am sure that it felt like a huge blow to see and feel and think about.

Like maybe it sounds you experience too, I feel frustrated and so disheartened and disappointed when I think of how differently my head used to work. My brain feels fried, mashed, melted and banananed and it makes everything so much harder. I've had to completely redefine what success means to me, and then try to work on being ok with that being where I am right now (definite work in progress there). I'm sad that what wasn't taken was my brain, and that it feels like it is going/has gone sometimes too.

I really hear you Queenie and am thinking of you, hoping things feel a bit better for you soon.

(Also, yesterday I tried to scroll down the page with my finger while I was reading a book, and I then tried to "unlock" a pen via the lid when I was writing a list. Not sure if thats mush brain or too much time on my phone but I'll add it to the list of what the heck moments!)