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QueenieSenior Contributor
The title says it all really. There is very little in my life which is going well tbh. The course... I'm in waaay over my head. I'm not smart enough for it. Now I feel stupid. I used to have an IQ of 132, these days I'm guessing I'd struggle to reach 100. That with the betrayal (and I don't really care who it is because at least it is the truth!) has thrown me.
I really wish I could just go to sleep for a very very long time.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
here for you @Queenie 
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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor
@Queenie I am very much running on empty myself at the moment, but I wanted you to know that I have read your post and that I hear you. It sounds like right now super sucks. I am glad that right now doesn't last forever. I super hope that things shift in a positive way for you sometime soon.
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QueenieSenior Contributor
Thank you @outlander and @Phoenix_Rising. Tomorrow is another day of studies and I feel like I am getting further and further behind because of my dimwittedness. Maybe it's the meds? Has anyone ever experienced that medications or their MI itself, has caused their brain to just go ......blah.?
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Phoenix_RisingSenior Contributor
@Queenie, it took me 12 years to do a 4-year degree because of my muddled brain. For me it is the muddle itself rather than medication effects that is the issue. I have very significant concentration issues, which made uni superly duperly tricky. I can definitely relate to the frustration of having a brain that doesn't work as well as it used to! 
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CatcakesSenior Contributor
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QueenieSenior Contributor
@Phoenix_Rising, I know I am incapable of studying full time, so it will take me a long time to finish this Diploma. If I do finish it, I think I will give up on my dream to study a Masters of Social Work at University. I just can't cut it and I'm just living in fairyland if I think I can. All I had left, after everything has been taken from me in the past, was my brain. Now I don't have that either. I have nothing left. 
I even contemplated something earlier, something I cannot mention here. Everything is just a confusing mess.
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QueenieSenior Contributor
@Catcakes my brain is frazzled. The amount of times I could have sworn I've had early onset dementia is bordering on ridiculous! I've also tried to pay for things with my Medicare card, I've had to buy 3 different pensioner bus/rail passes in the same week because I've lost the others (with substantial credit on them too). I even momentarily 'forgot' how to plait hair the other day, despite doing it a thousand or so times.
I guess this meeting of Brain Mush Anonymous is now in session!
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CatcakesSenior Contributor
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QueenieSenior Contributor
I hear you @Catcakes. Despite people around me making light of it, my brain mush is no laughing matter either. I was really wanting to be able to work at least part-time at the end of my studies. That doesn't look like it is going to happen and since I had my heart set on this as a career choice, I will be remaining on the DSP forever. 😞 It sucks doesn't it @Catcakes?
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CatcakesSenior Contributor
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