My beautiful son

Hi all...im new here..i posted yesterday but was removed because i mentioned a hospital...so reposting today...my beautiful son i no longer know...i should have relised a lot earlier ...maybe i was nieve or just didnt see what others saw....my son has big mental health issues we think due to use of drugs but my mother was in and out of psychiatric units when i was a young child..this may be a combination...anyway after a long time trying to work out what to do today was crunch time...my beautiful good friend came with me and i took my son for an assessment...he was psychotic..dilusional..scared..aggressive all rolled into one...this is a build up of many years..prob of drug use..he was assessed and admitted unvoluntarily...he went kicking and screaming and xrying out for me....it has been my worst traumatic experience ive ever been thru...i am broken as a mum..totally..i cannot visit for a few days as he has been put to sleep so to speak to get the drugs out of his system...noone can understand how im feeling..hopefully i can connect here with someone who has had similar experience with their child.....wanting to feel hopeful...😢😢😢